The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 11, No. 67, May, 1863 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 299 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 11, No. 67, May, 1863.

The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 11, No. 67, May, 1863 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 299 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 11, No. 67, May, 1863.

“She has found home at last!”—­she said; and, maybe, because something in the thought clung to her as she sauntered slowly down the garden—­alleys, her lips kept moving in a childish fashion of hers.  “A home at last, at last!”—­that was what she said.

Paul Blecker, too, waiting back yonder among the trees, saw McKinstry and his companion, and read the same story that Grey did, but in a different fashion.  “The girl loves him.”  There were possibilities, however, in that woman’s curious traits, that Blecker, being a physician and a little of a soul-fancier, saw:  nothing in McKinstry’s formal, orthodox nature ran parallel with them; therefore he never would know them.  As they passed Blecker’s outlook through the trees, his half-shut eye ran over her,—­the despondent step, the lithe, nervous limbs, the manner in which she clung for protection to his horny hand.  “Poor child!” the Doctor thought.  There was something more, in the girl’s face, that, people called gentle and shy:  a weak, uncertain chin; thin lips, never still an instant, opening and shutting like a starving animal’s; gray eyes, dead, opaque, such as Blecker had noted in the spiritual mediums in New England.

“I’m glad it is McKinstry she loves, and not I,” he said.

He turned, and forgot her, watching Grey coming nearer to him.  The garden sloped down to the borders of the creek, and she stood on its edge now, looking at the uneasy crusting of the black water and the pearly glint of moonlight.  Thinking of Lizzy, and the strong love that held her; feeling a little lonely, maybe, and quiet, she did not know why; trying to wrench her thoughts back to the house, and the clothes, and the spareribs.  Why! he could read her thoughts on her face as if it were a baby’s!  A homely, silly girl they called her.  He thanked God nobody had found her out before him.  Look at the dewy freshness of her skin! how pure she was! how the world would knock her about, if he did not keep his hold on her!  But he would do that; to-night he meant to lay his hand upon her life, and never take it off, absorb it in his own.  She moved forward into the clear light:  that was right.  There was a broken boll of a beech—­tree covered with lichen:  she should sit on that, presently, her face in open light, he in the shadow, while he told her.  “Watching her with hot breath where she stood, then going down to her:—­

“Is Grey waiting to bid her friend good-bye?”

She put her hand in his,—­her very lips trembling with the sudden heat, her untrained eyes wandering restlessly.

“I thought you would come to me, Doctor Blecker.”

“Call me Paul,” roughly.  “I was coarser born and bred than you.  I want to think that matters nothing to you.”

She looked up proudly.

“You know it matters nothing.  I am not vulgar.”

“No, Grey.  But—­it is curious, but no one ever called me Paul, as boy or man.  It is a sign of equality; and I’ve always had, in the melee, the underneath taint about me.  You are not vulgar enough to care for it.  Yours is the highest and purest nature I ever knew.  Yet I know it is right for you to call me Paul.  Your soul and mine stand on a plane before God.”

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