him by seeming to suppose that his severity to me
has been more than justice. I have confined myself
simply to a supplication for—his forgiveness
of what he called, in his own words, the only fault
of my life towards him, and an expression of the love
which even I must feel I for him, whether he forgives
me or not. This has been done in letter after
letter, and they are not sent back—it is
all. In my last letter, I ventured to ask him
to let it be an understood thing that he should before
the world, and to every practical purpose, act out
his idea of justice by excluding me formally, me and
mine, from every advantage he intended his other children—that,
having so been just, he might afford to be merciful
by giving me his forgiveness and affection—all
I asked and desired. My husband and I had talked
this over again and again; only it was a difficult
thing to say, you see. At last I took courage
and said it, because, doing it, papa might seem to
himself to reconcile his notion of strict justice,
and whatever remains of pity and tenderness might
still be in his heart towards me, if there are any
such. I know he has strong feelings at
bottom—otherwise, should I love him so?—but
he has adopted a bad system, and he (as well as I)
is crushed by it.... If I were to write to you
the political rumours we hear every day, you would
scarcely think our situation improved in safety by
the horrible Austrian army. Florence bristles
with cannon on all sides, and at the first movement
we are promised to be bombarded. On the other
hand, if the red republicans get uppermost there will
be a universal massacre; not a priest, according to
their own profession, will be left alive in Italy.
The constitutional party hope they are gaining strength,
but the progress which depends on intellectual growth
must necessarily be slow. That the Papacy has
for ever lost its prestige and power over souls is
the only evident truth; bright and strong enough to
cling to. I hear even devout women say: ’This
cursed Pope! it’s all his fault.’
Protestant places of worship are thronged with Italian
faces, and the minister of the Scotch church at Leghorn
has been threatened with exclusion from the country
if he admits Tuscans to the church communion.
Politically speaking, much will depend upon France,
and I have strong hope for France, though it is so
strictly the fashion to despair of her. Tell me
dear Mr. Martin’s impression and your own—everything
is good that comes from you. But most particularly,
tell me how you both are—tell me whether
you are strong again, dearest Mrs. Martin, for indeed
I do not like to hear of your being in the least like
an invalid. Do speak of yourself a little more.
Do you know, you are very unsatisfactory as a letter-writer
when you write about yourself—the reason
being that you never do write about yourself except
by the suddenest snatches, when you can’t possibly
help the reference....
Robert sends his true regards with those of your
Gratefully affectionate
BA.