one you will not refuse any love to the other when
you come to know him. I never could bear to speak
to you of him since quite the beginning, or
rather I never could dare. But when you know
him and understand how the mental gifts are scarcely
half of him, you will not wonder at your friend, and,
indeed, two years of steadfast affection from such
a man would have, overcome any woman’s heart.
I have been neither much wiser nor much foolisher than
all the shes in the world, only much happier—the
difference is in the happiness. Certainly I am
not likely to repent of having given myself to him.
I cannot, for all the pain received from another quarter,
the comfort for which is that my conscience is pure
of the sense of having broken the least known duty,
and that the same consequence would follow any marriage
of any member of my family with any possible man or
woman. I look to time, and reason, and natural
love and pity, and to the justification of the events
acting through all; I look on so and hope, and in
the meanwhile it has been a great comfort to have had
not merely the indulgence but the approbation and sympathy
of most of my old personal friends—oh,
such kind letters; for instance, yesterday one came
from dear Mrs. Martin, who has known me, she and her
husband, since the very beginning of my womanhood,
and both of them are acute, thinking people, with
heads as strong as their hearts. I in my haste
left England without a word to them, for which they
might naturally have reproached me; instead of which
they write to say that never for a moment have
they doubted my having acted for the best and happiest,
and to assure me that, having sympathised with me
in every sorrow and trial, they delightedly feel with
me in the new joy; nothing could be more cordially
kind. See how I write to you as if I could speak—all
these little things which are great things when seen
in the light. Also R, and I are not in the least
tired of one another notwithstanding the very perpetual
tete-a-tete into which we have fallen, and
which (past the first fortnight) would be rather a
trial in many cases. Then our housekeeping may
end perhaps in being a proverb among the nations,
for at the beginning it makes Mrs. Jameson laugh heartily.
It disappoints her theories, she admits—finding
that, albeit poets, we abstain from burning candles
at both ends at once, just as if we did statistics
and historical abstracts by nature instead. And
do not think that the trouble falls on me. Even
the pouring out of the coffee is a divided labour,
and the ordering of the dinner is quite out of my
hands. As for me, when I am so good as to let
myself be carried upstairs, and so angelical as to
sit still on the sofa, and so considerate, moreover,
as not to put my foot into a puddle, why my
duty is considered done to a perfection which is worthy
of all adoration; it really is not very hard work to
please this taskmaster. For Pisa, we both like
it extremely. The city is full of beauty and