in the meanwhile, however, my case is not to be classed
with other cases—what happened to me could
not have happened, perhaps, with any other family
in England.... I hate and loathe everything too
which is clandestine—we both do,
Robert and I; and the manner the whole business was
carried on in might have instructed the least acute
of the bystanders. The flowers standing perpetually
on my table for the last two years were brought there
by one hand, as everybody knew; and really it would
have argued an excess of benevolence in an unmarried
man with quite enough resources in London, to pay
the continued visits he paid to me without some strong
motive indeed. Was it his fault that he did not
associate with everybody in the house as well as with
me? He desired it; but no—that was
not to be. The endurance of the pain of the position
was not the least proof of his attachment to me.
How I thank you for believing in him—how
grateful it makes me! He will justify to the uttermost
that faith. We have been married two months,
and every hour has bound me to him more and more;
if the beginning was well, still better it is now—that
is what he says to me, and I say back again day by
day. Then it is an ‘advantage,’ to
have an inexhaustible companion who talks wisdom of
all things in heaven and earth, and shows besides as
perpetual a good humour and gaiety as if he were—a
fool, shall I say? or a considerable quantity more,
perhaps. As to our domestic affairs, it is not
to my honour and glory that the ‘bills’
are made up every week and paid more regularly ‘than
hard beseems,’ while dear Mrs. Jameson laughs
outright at our miraculous prudence and economy, and
declares that it is past belief and precedent that
we should not burn the candles at both ends, and the
next moment will have it that we remind her of the
children in a poem of Heine’s who set up housekeeping
in a tub, and inquired gravely the price of coffee.
Ah, but she has left Pisa at last—left
it yesterday. It was a painful parting to everybody.
Seven weeks spent in such close neighbourhood—a
month of it under the same roof and in the same carriages—will
fasten people together, and then travelling shakes
them together. A more affectionate, generous
woman never lived than Mrs. Jameson, and it is pleasant
to be sure that she loves us both from her heart, and
not only du bout des levres. Think of
her making Robert promise (as he has told me since)
that in the case of my being unwell he would write
to her instantly, and she would come at once if anywhere
in Italy. So kind, so like her. She spends
the winter in Rome, but an intermediate month at Florence,
and we are to keep tryst with her somewhere in the
spring, perhaps at Venice. If not, she says that
she will come back here, for that certainly she will
see us. She would have stayed altogether perhaps,
if it had not been for her book upon art which she
is engaged to bring out next year, and the materials