jewel and lay it reverently before him, to signify
my heart’s relation to him; and then, for me,
request the king to stifle every fickle feeling of
affection, and say that I, to escape from birth and
age and death, have entered on the wild forest of
painful discipline; not that I may get a heavenly birth,
much less because I have no tenderness of heart, or
that I cherish any cause of bitterness, but only that
I may escape this weight of sorrow. The accumulated
long-night weight of covetous desire (love), I now
desire to ease the load so that it may be overthrown
forever; therefore I seek the way of ultimate escape;
if I should obtain emancipation, then shall I never
need to put away my kindred, to leave my home, to sever
ties of love. O! grieve not for your son!
The five desires of sense beget the sorrow; those
held by lust themselves induce the sorrow. My
very ancestors, victorious kings, thinking their throne
established and immovable, have handed down to me
their kingly wealth; I, thinking only on religion,
put it all away; the royal mothers at the end of life
their cherished treasures leave for their sons, those
sons who covet much such worldly profit; but I rejoice
to have acquired religious wealth; if you say that
I am young and tender, and that the time for seeking
wisdom is not come, you ought to know that to seek
true religion, there never is a time not fit; impermanence
and fickleness, the hate of death, these ever follow
us, and therefore I embrace the present day, convinced
that now is time to seek religion. With such
entreaties as the above, you must make matters plain
on my behalf; but, pray you, cause my father not to
think longingly after me; let him destroy all recollection
of me, and cut out from his soul the ties of love;
and you, grieve not because of what I say, but recollect
to give the king my message.”
Kandaka hearing respectfully the words of exhortation,
blinded and confused through choking sorrow, with
hands outstretched did worship; and answering the
prince, he spoke, “The orders that you give me
will, I fear, add grief to grief, and sorrow thus
increased will deepen, as the elephant who struggles
into deeper mire. When the ties of love are rudely
snapped, who, that has any heart, would not grieve!
The golden ore may still by stamping be broken up,
how much more the feelings choked with sorrow! the
prince has grown up in a palace, with every care bestowed
upon his tender person, and now he gives his body to
the rough and thorny forest; how will he be able to
bear a life of privation? When first you ordered
me to equip your steed, my mind was indeed sorely
troubled, but the heavenly powers urged me on, causing
me to hasten the preparation of the horse, but what
is the intention that urges the prince, to resolve
thus to leave his secure palace? The people of
Kapilavastu, and all the country afflicted with grief;
your father, now an old man, mindful of his son, loving
him moreover tenderly; surely this determination to