my father desired, by making it the direct apparent
interest of Sir Arthur that I should die without issue,
while at the same time he placed my person wholly in
his power, to prove to the world how great and unshaken
was his confidence in his brother’s innocence
and honour. It was a strange, perhaps an idle
scheme, but as I had been always brought up in the
habit of considering my uncle as a deeply injured
man, and had been taught, almost as a part of my religion,
to regard him as the very soul of honour, I felt no
further uneasiness respecting the arrangement than
that likely to affect a shy and timid girl at the immediate
prospect of taking up her abode for the first time
in her life among strangers. Previous to leaving
my home, which I felt I should do with a heavy heart,
I received a most tender and affectionate letter from
my uncle, calculated, if anything could do so, to
remove the bitterness of parting from scenes familiar
and dear from my earliest childhood, and in some degree
to reconcile me to the measure. It was upon a
fine autumn day that I approached the old domain of
Carrickleigh. I shall not soon forget the impression
of sadness and of gloom which all that I saw produced
upon my mind; the sunbeams were falling with a rich
and melancholy lustre upon the fine old trees, which
stood in lordly groups, casting their long sweeping
shadows over rock and sward; there was an air of neglect
and decay about the spot, which amounted almost to
desolation, and mournfully increased as we approached
the building itself, near which the ground had been
originally more artificially and carefully cultivated
than elsewhere, and where consequently neglect more
immediately and strikingly betrayed itself.
As we proceeded, the road wound near the beds of what
had been formerly two fish-ponds, which were now nothing
more than stagnant swamps, overgrown with rank weeds,
and here and there encroached upon by the straggling
underwood; the avenue itself was much broken; and in
many places the stones were almost concealed by grass
and nettles; the loose stone walls which had here
and there intersected the broad park, were, in many
places, broken down, so as no longer to answer their
original purpose as fences; piers were now and then
to be seen, but the gates were gone; and to add to
the general air of dilapidation, some huge trunks
were lying scattered through the venerable old trees,
either the work of the winter storms, or perhaps the
victims of some extensive but desultory scheme of
denudation, which the projector had not capital or
perseverance to carry into full effect.