of God and bringing them back hither into the fold
of the Essenes. In those days there was little
else in me but love of God, and I could walk from
dusk to dusk without wearying; twelve and fifteen
hours were not too many for my feet: my feet
bounded along the road while my eyes followed white
clouds moving over the sky; I dreamed of them as God’s
palaces, and I saw God not only in the clouds but
in the grass, and in the fields, and the flower that
covers the fields. I read God in the air and in
the waters: and in every town in Palestine I
sought out those that loved God and those that could
learn to love God. I could walk well in those
days, fifteen hours were less than as many minutes
are now. I have walked from Jerusalem to Joppa
in one day, and the night that I met thy father outside
Nazareth I had walked twelve hours, though I had been
delayed in the morning: eight hours before midday,
and after a rest in the wood I went on again for several
hours more, how many I do not know, I’ve forgotten.
I did not know the distance that I had walked till
I met thy father coming home from his work, his tools
in the bag upon his shoulder. His voice is still
in my ear. But if it be to Nazareth thou’rt
going, come along with me, he said. And I can
still hear ourselves talking, myself asking him to
direct me to a lodging, and his answering: there’s
a house in the village where thou’lt get one,
and I’ll lead thee to it. But all the beds
in that house were full; we knocked at other inns,
but the men and women and children in them were asleep
and not to be roused; and if by chance our knocking
awakened somebody we were bidden away with threats
that the dogs would be loosed upon us. Nazareth
looks not kindly on the wayfarer to-night, I said.
Yet it shall not be said that a stranger had to sleep
in the streets of Nazareth, were thy father’s
very words to me, Jesus. Come to my house, he
said, though it be small and we have to put somebody
out of his bed, it will be better than that our town
should gain evil repute. Thou canst not have
forgotten me coming, for thy father shook thee out
of thy sleep and told thee that he wanted thy bed
for a stranger. I can see thee still standing
before me in thy shift, and though the hours I’d
travelled had gone down into my very marrow, and sleep
was heavy upon my eyes, yet a freshness came upon me
as of the dawn when I looked on thee, and my heart
told me that I had found one that would do honour
to the Essenes, and love God more than any I had ever
met with yet. But I think I hear thee weeping,
Jesus. Now, for what art thou weeping? There
is nothing sad in the story, only that it is a long
time ago. Our speech next day still rings in my
ear—my telling thee of the Pharisees that
merely minded the letter of the law, and of the Sadducees
that said there was no life outside this world except
for angels. It is well indeed that I remember
our two selves sitting by the door on two stools set
under a vine, and it throwing pretty patterns of shadow
on the pavement whilst we talked—whilst
I talked to thee of the brethren, who lived down by
the Bitter Lake, no one owning anything more than
his fellow, so that none might be distracted from God
by the pleasures of this world. I can see clearly
through the years thy face expectant, and Nazareth—the
deeply rutted streets and the hills above.