Alas! how oft does goodness
would itself,
And sweet affection
prove the spring of woe!
Home.
O thou pale orb that
silent shines
While care-untroubled
mortals sleep!
Thou seest a wretch
who inly pines.
And wanders here to
wail and weep!
With woe I nightly vigils
keep,
Beneath thy wan, unwarming
beam;
And mourn, in lamentation
deep,
How life and love are
all a dream!
I joyless view thy rays
adorn
The faintly-marked,
distant hill;
I joyless view thy trembling
horn,
Reflected in the gurgling
rill:
My fondly-fluttering
heart, be still!
Thou busy pow’r,
remembrance, cease!
Ah! must the agonizing
thrill
For ever bar returning
peace!
No idly-feign’d,
poetic pains,
My sad, love-lorn lamentings
claim:
No shepherd’s
pipe-Arcadian strains;
No fabled tortures,
quaint and tame.
The plighted faith,
the mutual flame,
The oft-attested pow’rs
above,
The promis’d father’s
tender name;
These were the pledges
of my love!
Encircled in her clasping
arms,
How have the raptur’d
moments flown!
How have I wish’d
for fortune’s charms,
For her dear sake, and
her’s alone!
And, must I think it!
is she gone,
My secret heart’s
exulting boast?
And does she heedless
hear my groan?
And is she ever, ever
lost?
Oh! can she bear so
base a heart,
So lost to honour, lost
to truth,
As from the fondest
lover part,
The plighted husband
of her youth?
Alas! life’s path
may be unsmooth!
Her way may lie thro’
rough distress!
Then, who her pangs
and pains will soothe
Her sorrows share, and
make them less?
Ye winged hours that
o’er us pass’d,
Enraptur’d more,
the more enjoy’d,
Your dear remembrance
in my breast
My fondly-treasur’d
thoughts employ’d:
That breast, how dreary
now, and void,
For her too scanty once
of room!
Ev’n ev’ry
ray of hope destroy’d,
And not a wish to gild
the gloom!
The morn, that warns
th’ approaching day,
Awakes me up to toil
and woe;
I see the hours in long
array,
That I must suffer,
lingering, slow:
Full many a pang, and
many a throe,
Keen recollection’s
direful train,
Must wring my soul,
were Phoebus, low,
Shall kiss the distant
western main.
And when my nightly
couch I try,
Sore harass’d
out with care and grief,
My toil-beat nerves,
and tear-worn eye,
Keep watchings with
the nightly thief:
Or if I slumber, fancy,
chief,
Reigns, haggard—wild,
in sore affright:
Ev’n day, all-bitter,
brings relief
From such a horror-breathing
night.