I even let the little phantom glide into my reverie
without being startled. I even speculated on
the old theme which had so haunted me. I wondered
whether my suspicions had been correct, and whether—whether
Madame C—— was guilty of sending
her little son before her into the other world.
So thinking,—I might have been almost dreaming,—a
slight rustle in the shop aroused me. I was not
alarmed; my nerves are now much healthier, and I wisely
make a point of not getting them unstrung by violent
movements, or unaccustomed feats of activity, when
anything astonishing happens. I therefore lifted
my head calmly and looked about,—it might
be a mouse. The noise ceased that instant, as
if the intruder were aware of being observed.
Mice sometimes have this instinct. We had some
valuable new confections, which I had no desire should
be disposed of by such customers. So, taking
up my lamp, and peering cautiously about me, I proceeded
to the shop. The light flickered,—flickered
on something tall and white,—something
white and shadowy, standing erect, and shrinking aside,
behind the counter. My heart stood still; a sepulchral
chill came over me. My old self, trembling, angry,
foreboding, stepped suddenly within the niche whence
the self-confident, full-grown, sensible woman had
vanished utterly. For an instant, I felt like
a ghost myself. It seemed natural that ghosts,
if such there were, should spy me out, and appall my
heart with their presence. For there, in that
old, haunted spot, where long years ago the spectre
of little Jacques had lifted its menacing finger, stood
the form of Marie, Madame C——. I
knew it well; shuddering and shivering myself, more
like an intruder than one intruded upon, I laid my
hand upon the chill marble counter for support.
It was no creation of imagination; the figure laid
its hand also upon the marble, and, stretching over
its gaunt neck, stood and peered into my eyes.
“Madame C——! Madame C——!”
I cried; “what in the name of God would you
have of me?”
“Nothing,” she answered,—“nothing
of you,—and nothing in the name of God.
Oh, you need not shudder at me,—Christine
C——! I know you well enough.
You haven’t got over your old tricks yet.
I’m no ghost, though. Mayhap you’d
rather I’d be, for all your nerves, eh?”—and
she shook her head in the old vengeful, threatening
way.
It was true enough. “What evil atmosphere
surrounded me? What fell snare environed me?
I looked about like a hunted animal brought to bay,—like
a robber suddenly entrapped in the midst of his ill-gotten
gains. For this was no dead woman, but a living
vengeance, more terrible than death, brought to my
very door. Some unseen power, it seemed, full
of evil influence, full of malignant justice, stretched
its long arms through my life, and would not let me
by any means escape to peace, to rest. A direful
vision of horrible struggles yet to come—of
want, despair, disgrace in reservation—sickened
my soul.