thoughts swept over me as a tempest sweeps over the
young tree whose roots are not firm in the soil, whose
writhing and wrestling are impotent to defend it from
certain destruction. There was no one I loved
especially, no one I cared for anxiously, to relieve
the bitter thoughts which centred in myself alone.
Monsieur awoke as I was sitting thus, in ineffectual
effort to compose myself. Seeing me sitting near
him, still dressed, the door open, and the light burning,
he inquired what was the matter. I had something
below requiring his attention, I said, and, taking
up the lamp, ushered him down-stairs. My chaotic
thoughts were beginning to settle themselves,—to
form a nucleus about the first circumstance that thrust
itself definitely before them. That poor wretch
waiting below,—that forsaken, abject, dishonored
wife,—I would confront him with her, and
charge him with his guilt. Opening the saloon-door,
I stepped in before him. The lamp which I had
left upon the stand was out, and the slender thread
of light which fell from the one in my hand, sweeping
across the gloom, rested upon the deserted sofa.
The saloon was empty; no trace, no sign could be discovered
of any human being. The hush, the solemnity of
night brooded over the place. Monsieur mockingly,
but unsteadily, inquired what child’s game I
was playing,—he was too tired to be fooled
with. He spoke hotly and quickly, as he never
had spoken to me before,—like one who has
long been ill at ease, and deems a slight circumstance
portentous.
So I turned upon him, with all the bitterness in my
heart rising to my tongue. I told him the story.
I charged him with the guilt. He listened in
silence; marble-like he stood with folded arms, and
heard the conclusion of the whole matter. When
I was silent, he strode up to me, and, stooping, peered
into my face steadily. His teeth were clenched,
his eyes shot fire; otherwise he was calm, quite composed.
He said, quietly,—
“Would you blame me for making an angel out
of an idiot?”
Monsieur’s philosophy was too subtile for me.
GUILTY seemed a coarse word to apply to so fine a
nature.
He denied having attempted to injure his wife in any
way.
“Women are all fools,” he said; “they
are all alike,—go just as they are led,
and do just as they are taught. They cannot think
for themselves. They have no ideas of justice
but just what the law furnishes them with. It
was silly to complain; it argued a narrow mind to
condemn merely because the laws condemn. In that
case all should be acquitted whom the laws acquit,—did
we ever do this? Would his darling Jacques, happy,
angelic, condemn his parent for releasing him from
the drudgery of life? Was it not better to play
on a golden harp than to be a confectioner? Were
not all men, in fact, more or less slayers of their
brothers? Was I not myself guilty in attributing
to Madame a deed in my eyes worthy of death, and of
which she was innocent? It was only those whose