and that we shall derive nothing from it but a painful
conviction of our error. Your mother heard me
read the letter, she read it herself, and honoured
it with her warm approbation. But it gave mortal
offence; it received, indeed, an answer, but such
an one as I could by no means reply to; and there
ended (for it was impossible it should ever be renewed)
a friendship that bid fair to be lasting; being formed
with a woman whose seeming stability of temper, whose
knowledge of the world and great experience of its
folly, but, above all, whose sense of religion and
seriousness of mind (for with all that gaiety she is
a great thinker) induced us both, in spite of that
cautious reserve that marked our characters, to trust
her, to love and value her, and to open our hearts
for her reception. It may be necessary to add
that by her own desire, I wrote to her under the assumed
relation of a brother, and she to me as my sister.
Ceu fumus in auras.” It is impossible
to read this without suspecting that there was more
of “romance” on one side, than there was
either of romance or of consciousness of the situation
on the other. On that occasion the reconciliation,
though “impossible,” took place, the lady
sending, by way of olive branch, a pair of ruffles,
which it was known she had begun to work before the
quarrel. The second rupture was final.
Hayley, who treats the matter with sad solemnity,
tells us that Cowper’s letter of farewell to
Lady Austen, as she assured him herself, was admirable,
though unluckily, not being gratified by it at the
time, she had thrown it into the fire. Cowper
has himself given us, in a letter to Lady Hesketh,
with reference to the final rupture, a version of
the whole affair:—“There came a lady
into this country, by name and title Lady Austen, the
widow of the late Sir Robert Austen. At first
she lived with her sister about a mile from Olney;
but in a few weeks took lodgings at the vicarage here.
Between the vicarage and the back of our house are
interposed our garden, an orchard, and the garden belonging
to the vicarage. She had lived much in France,
was very sensible, and had infinite vivacity.
She took a great liking to us, and we to her.
She had been used to a great deal of company, and
we, fearing that she would feel such a transition
into silent retirement irksome, contrived to give
her our agreeable company often. Becoming continually
more and more intimate, a practice at length obtained
of our dining with each other alternately every day,
Sundays excepted. In order to facilitate our
communication, we made doors in the two garden-walls
aforesaid, by which means we considerably shortened
the way from one house to the other, and could meet
when we pleased without entering the town at all;
a measure the rather expedient, because the town is
abominably dirty, and she kept no carriage.
On her first settlement in our neighbourhood, I made
it my own particular business (for at that time I
was not employed in writing, having published my first