“What would you have me do? Would you have me stay at home and weep for what I cannot help?”
This was not indifference; for when, after nearly two years of weary waiting, he heard of the safety and success of the overland expedition, he was so overjoyed that he could scarcely contain himself.
“I felt ready,” said he, “to fall upon my knees in a transport of gratitude.”
A touch in one of his letters shows the absolute confidence he felt in his own judgment and abilities, a confidence invariably exhibited by men of the first executive talents.
“Were I on the spot,” he wrote to one of his agents when the affairs of the settlement appeared desperate,
“and had the management of affairs, I would defy them all; but, as it is, everything depends upon you and the friends about you. Our enterprise is grand and deserves success, and I hope in God it will meet it. If my object was merely gain of money, I should say: ’Think whether it is best to save what we can and abandon the place’; but the thought is like a dagger to my heart.”
He intimates here that his object was not merely “gain of money.” What was it, then? Mr. Irving informs us that it was desire of fame. We should rather say that when nature endows a man with a remarkable gift she also implants within him the love of exercising it. Astor loved to plan a vast, far-reaching enterprise. He loved it as Morphy loves to play chess, as Napoleon loved to plan a campaign, as Raphael loved to paint, and Handel to compose.