planned out work through the long night: success
to come, but with his wife nearest his heart, and
the homely farm-house and the old schoolmaster in the
centre of the picture. Such an humble castle in
the air! Christmas morning was surely something
to him. Yet, as the night passed, he went back
to the years that had been wasted, with an unavailing
bitterness. He would not turn from the truth,
that, with his strength of body and brain to command
happiness and growth, his life had been a failure.
I think it was first on that night that the story
of the despised Nazarene came to him with a new meaning,—One
who came to gather up these broken fragments of lives
and save them with His own. But vaguely, though:
Christmas-day as yet was to him the day when love came
into the world. He knew the meaning of that.
So he watched with an eagerness new to him the day
breaking. He could see Margaret’s window,
and a dim light in it: she would be awake, praying
for him, no doubt. He pondered on that.
Would you think Holmes weak, if he forsook the faith
of Fichte, sometime, led by a woman’s hand?
Think of the apostle of the positive philosophers,
and say no more. He could see a flickering light
at dawn crossing the hall: he remembered the
old schoolmaster’s habit well,—calling
“Happy Christmas” at every door: he
meant to go down there for breakfast, as he used to
do, imagining how the old man would wring his hands,
with a “Holla! you’re welcome home, Stephen,
boy!” and Mrs. Howth would bring out the jars
of pine-apple preserve which her sister sent her every
year from the West Indies. And then——Never
mind what then. Stephen Holmes was very much
in love, and this Christmas-day had much to bring
him. Yet it was with a solemn shadow on his face
that he watched the dawn, showing that he grasped
the awful meaning of this day that “brought
love into the world.” Through the clear,
frosty night he could hear a low chime of distant
bells shiver the air, hurrying faint and far to tell
the glad tidings. He fancied that the dawn flushed
warm to hear the story,—that the very earth
should rejoice in its frozen depths, if it were true.
If it were true!—if this passion in his
heart were but a part of an all-embracing power, in
whose clear depths the world struggled vainly!—if
it were true that this Christ did come to make that
love clear to us! There would be some meaning
then in the old schoolmaster’s joy, in the bells
wakening the city yonder, in even poor Lois’s
thorough content in this day,—for it would
be, he knew, a thrice-happy day to her. A strange
story that of the Child coming into the world,—simple!
He thought of it, watching, through his cold, gray
eyes, how all the fresh morning told it,—it
was in the very air; thinking how its echo stole through
the whole world,—how innumerable children’s
voices told it in eager laughter,—how even
the lowest slave half-smiled, on waking, to think
it was Christmas-day, the day that Christ was born.