And he went his
way
Barefooted, fasting long, with many prayers;
But even as one who, followed unawares,
Suddenly in the darkness feels a hand
Thrill with its touch his own, and his
cheek fanned
By odors subtly sweet, and whispers near
Of words he loathes, yet cannot choose
but hear,
So, while the Rabbi journeyed, chanting
low
The wail of David’s penitential
woe,
Before him still the old temptation came,
And mocked him with the motion and the
shame
Of such desires that, shuddering, he abhorred
Himself; and, crying mightily to the Lord
To free his soul and cast the demon out,
Smote with his staff the blackness round
about.
At length, in the low light of a spent
day,
The towers of Ecbatana far away
Rose on the desert’s rim; and Nathan,
faint
And footsore, pausing where for some dead
saint
The faith of Islam reared a domed tomb,
Saw some one kneeling in the shadow, whom
He greeted kindly: “May the
Holy One
Answer thy prayers, O stranger!”
Whereupon
The shape stood up with a loud cry, and
then,
Clasped in each other’s arms, the
two gray men
Wept, praising him whose gracious providence
Made their paths one. But straightway,
as the sense
Of his transgression smote him, Nathan
tore
Himself away: “O friend beloved,
no more
Worthy am I to touch thee, for I came,
Foul from my sins to tell thee all my
shame.
Haply thy prayers, since naught availeth
mine,
May purge my soul, and make it white like
thine.
Pity me, O Ben Isaac, I have sinned!”
Awestruck Ben Isaac stood. The desert
wind
Blew his long mantle backward, laying
bare
The mournful secret of his shirt of hair.
“I too, O friend, if not in act,”
he said,
“In thought have verily sinned.
Hast thou not read,
’Better the eye should see than
that desire
Should wander’? Burning with
a hidden fire
That tears and prayers quench not, I come
to thee
For pity and for help, as thou to me.
Pray for me, O my friend!” But Nathan
cried,
“Pray thou for me, Ben Isaac!”
Side by side
In the low sunshine by the turban stone
They knelt; each made his brother’s
woe his own,
Forgetting, in the agony and stress
Of pitying love, his claim of selfishness;
Peace, for his friend besought, his own
became;
His prayers were answered in another’s
name;
And, when at last they rose up to embrace,
Each saw God’s pardon in his brother’s
face!
Long after, when his headstone gathered
moss,
Traced on the targum-marge of Onkelos
In Rabbi Nathan’s hand these words
were read:
“Hope not the cure of sin till Self
is dead;
Forget it in love’s service, and
the debt
Thou canst not pay the angels shall forget;
Heaven’s gate is shut to him who
comes alone;
Save thou a soul, and it shall save thy
own!”