July 3d. I have slept badly; certainly there is some feverish influence here, for my coachman is suffering in the same way as I am.  When I went back home yesterday, I noticed his singular paleness, and I asked him:  “What is the matter with you, Jean?” “The matter is that I never get any rest, and my nights devour my days.  Since your departure, monsieur, there has been a spell over me.”

However, the other servants are all well, but I am very frightened of having another attack, myself.

July 4th. I am decidedly taken again; for my old nightmares have returned.  Last night I felt somebody leaning on me who was sucking my life from between my lips with his mouth.  Yes, he was sucking it out of my neck, like a leech would have done.  Then he got up, satiated, and I woke up, so beaten, crushed and annihilated that I could not move.  If this continues for a few days, I shall certainly go away again.

July 5th. Have I lost my reason?  What has happened, what I saw last night, is so strange, that my head wanders when I think of it!

As I do now every evening, I had locked my door, and then, being thirsty, I drank half a glass of water, and I accidentally noticed that the water bottle was full up to the cut-glass stopper.

Then I went to bed and fell into one of my terrible sleeps, from which I was aroused in about two hours by a still more terrible shock.

Picture to yourself a sleeping man who is being murdered and who wakes up with a knife in his chest, and who is rattling in his throat, covered with blood, and who can no longer breathe, and is going to die, and does not understand anything at all about it—­there it is.

Having recovered my senses, I was thirsty again, so I lit a candle and went to the table on which my water bottle was.  I lifted it up and tilted it over my glass, but nothing came out.  It was empty!  It was completely empty!  At first I could not understand it at all, and then suddenly I was seized by such a terrible feeling that I had to sit down, or rather I fell into a chair!  Then I sprang up with a bound to look about me, and then I sat down again, overcome by astonishment and fear, in front of the transparent crystal bottle!  I looked at it with fixed eyes, trying to conjecture, and my hands trembled!  Somebody had drunk the water, but who?  I?  I without any doubt.  It could surely only be I?  In that case I was a somnambulist.  I lived, without knowing it, that double mysterious life which makes us doubt whether there are not two beings in us, or whether a strange, unknowable and invisible being does not at such moments, when our soul is in a state of torpor, animate our captive body which obeys this other being, as it does us ourselves, and more than it does ourselves.

Oh!  Who will understand my horrible agony?  Who will understand the emotion of a man who is sound in mind, wide awake, full of sound sense, and who looks in horror at the remains of a little water that has disappeared while he was asleep, through the glass of a water bottle?  And I remained there until it was daylight, without venturing to go to bed again.