Doctors explain to us that the immediate cause of insomnia is always some poisoned or depleted state of the body, and no doubt the fatigues and hasty meals of the day had left the bishop in a state of unprecedented chemical disorder, with his nerves irritated by strange compounds and unsoothed by familiar lubricants.  But chemical disorders follow mental disturbances, and the core and essence of his trouble was an intellectual distress.  For the first time in his life he was really in doubt, about himself, about his way of living, about all his persuasions.  It was a general doubt.  It was not a specific suspicion upon this point or that.  It was a feeling of detachment and unreality at once extraordinarily vague and extraordinarily oppressive.  It was as if he discovered himself flimsy and transparent in a world of minatory solidity and opacity.  It was as if he found himself made not of flesh and blood but of tissue paper.

But this intellectual insecurity extended into his physical sensations.  It affected his feeling in his skin, as if it were not absolutely his own skin.

And as he lay there, a weak phantom mentally and bodily, an endless succession and recurrence of anxieties for which he could find no reassurance besieged him.

Chief of this was his distress for Eleanor.

She was the central figure in this new sense of illusion in familiar and trusted things.  It was not only that the world of his existence which had seemed to be the whole universe had become diaphanous and betrayed vast and uncontrollable realities beyond it, but his daughter had as it were suddenly opened a door in this glassy sphere of insecurity that had been his abiding refuge, a door upon the stormy rebel outer world, and she stood there, young, ignorant, confident, adventurous, ready to step out.

“Could it be possible that she did not believe?”

He saw her very vividly as he had seen her in the dining-room, slender and upright, half child, half woman, so fragile and so fearless.  And the door she opened thus carelessly gave upon a stormy background like one of the stormy backgrounds that were popular behind portrait Dianas in eighteenth century paintings.  Did she believe that all he had taught her, all the life he led was—­what was her phrase?—­a kind of magic world, not really real?

He groaned and turned over and repeated the words:  “A kind of magic world—­not really real!”

The wind blew through the door she opened, and scattered everything in the room.  And still she held the door open.

He was astonished at himself.  He started up in swift indignation.  Had he not taught the child?  Had he not brought her up in an atmosphere of faith?  What right had she to turn upon him in this matter?  It was—­indeed it was—­a sort of insolence, a lack of reverence....

It was strange he had not perceived this at the time.

But indeed at the first mention of “questionings” he ought to have thundered.  He saw that quite clearly now.  He ought to have cried out and said, “On your knees, my Norah, and ask pardon of God!”