He mused, and the scheme of his perplexities reshaped itself in his mind.  But at that time he did not realize that a powerful new light was falling upon it now, cast by the tragic illumination of these young lovers whose love began with a parting.  He did not see how reality had come to all things through that one intense reality.  He reverted to the question as he had put it to himself, before first he recognized Eleanor.  Did he believe in God?  Should he go on with this Sunderbund adventure in which he no longer believed?  Should he play for safety and comfort, trusting to God’s toleration?  Or go back to his family and warn them of the years of struggle and poverty his renunciation cast upon them?

Somehow Lady Sunderbund’s chapel was very remote and flimsy now, and the hardships of poverty seemed less black than the hardship of a youthful death.

Did he believe in God?  Again he put that fundamental question to himself.

He sat very still in the sunset peace, with his eyes upon the steel mirror of the waters.  The question seemed to fill the whole scene, to wait, even as the water and sky and the windless trees were waiting....

And then by imperceptible degrees there grew in Scrope’s mind the persuasion that he was in the presence of the living God.  This time there was no vision of angels nor stars, no snapping of bow-strings, no throbbing of the heart nor change of scene, no magic and melodramatic drawing back of the curtain from the mysteries; the water and the bridge, the ragged black trees, and a distant boat that broke the silvery calm with an arrow of black ripples, all these things were still before him.  But God was there too.  God was everywhere about him.  This persuasion was over him and about him; a dome of protection, a power in his nerves, a peace in his heart.  It was an exalting beauty; it was a perfected conviction....  This indeed was the coming of God, the real coming of God.  For the first time Scrope was absolutely sure that for the rest of his life he would possess God.  Everything that had so perplexed him seemed to be clear now, and his troubles lay at the foot of this last complete realization like a litter of dust and leaves in the foreground of a sunlit, snowy mountain range.

It was a little incredible that he could ever have doubted.

(11)

It was a phase of extreme intellectual clairvoyance.  A multitude of things that hitherto had been higgledy-piggledy, contradictory and incongruous in his mind became lucid, serene, full and assured.  He seemed to see all things plainly as one sees things plainly through perfectly clear still water in the shadows of a summer noon.  His doubts about God, his periods of complete forgetfulness and disregard of God, this conflict of his instincts and the habits and affections of his daily life with the service of God, ceased to be perplexing incompatibilities and were manifest as necessary, understandable aspects of the business of living.