When you have read this I shall have left you forever. Forget me and try to forgive. In the six years we have lived together, you have always been kind to me. But, Jack, there is something we cannot give or take away, and because some one has come who has won that, I am leaving you. I’m sorry, Jackie, I’m sorry.
Irene.
When he had read this once in unbelief, he read it immediately again, approaching the lamp, laying it on the table and pressing his fists against his temple, to concentrate all his mind.
“It’s a joke,” he said, speaking aloud.
He rose, stumbling a little and aiding himself with his arm, leaning against the wall, went into her room, and opened the drawer where her jewel case should be. It was gone.
“Then it’s true,” he said solemnly. “It’s ended. What am I to do?”
He went to her wardrobe, looking at the vacant hooks, repeating:
“What am I to do?”
He went slowly back to the living-room to the desk by the lamp, where the hateful thing stared up at him.
“What am I to do?”
All at once he struck the desk with his fist and a cry burst from him:
“Dishonored—I’m dishonored!”
His head flushed hot, his breath came in short, panting rage. He struck the letter again and again, and then suddenly, frantically, began to rush back and forth, repeating:
“Dishonored—dishonored!”
All at once a moment of clarity came to him with a chill of ice. He stopped, went to the telephone and called up the Racquet Club, saying:
“Mr. De Gollyer to the ’phone.”
Then he looked at his hand and found he was still clutching a forgotten hair brush. With a cry at the grotesqueness of the thing, he flung it from him, watching it go skipping over the polished floor. The voice of De Gollyer called him.
“Is that you, Jim?” he said, steadying himself. “Come—come to me at once—quick!”
He could have said no more. He dropped the receiver, overturning the stand, and began again his caged pacing of the floor.
Ten minutes later De Gollyer nervously slipped into the room. He was a quick, instinctive ferret of a man, one to whose eyes the hidden life of the city held no mysteries; who understood equally the shadows that glide on the street and the masks that pass in luxurious carriages. In one glance he had caught the disorder in the room and the agitation in his friend. He advanced a step, balanced his hat on the desk, perceived the crumpled letter, and, clearing his throat, drew back, frowning and alert, correctly prepared for any situation.
Lightbody, without seeming to perceive his arrival, continued his blind traveling, pressing his fists from time to time against his throat to choke back the excess of emotions which, in the last minutes, had dazed his perceptions and left him inertly struggling against a shapeless pain. All at once he stopped, flung out his arms and cried: