I feel almost at times as I have felt
In happy childhood; trees, and flowers,
and brooks,
Which do remember me of where I dwelt
Ere my young mind was sacrificed to books,
Come as of yore upon me, and can melt
My heart with recognition of their looks:
And even at moments I could think I see
Some living thing to love—but
none like thee.
VIII.
Here are the Alpine landscapes which create
A fund for contemplation.—to
admire
Is a brief feeling of a trivial date;
But something worthier do such scenes
inspire:
Here to be lonely is not desolate.
For much I view which I could most desire,
And, above all, a lake I can behold
Lovelier, not dearer, than our own of
old.
IX.
Oh that thou wert but with me!—but
I grow
The fool of my own wishes, and forget
The solitude which I have vaunted so
Has lost its praise in this but one regret;
There may be others which I less may show;—
I am not of the plaintive mood, and yet
I feel an ebb in my philosophy
And the tide rising in my alter’d
eye.
X.
I did remind thee of our own dear lake,
By the old hall which may be mine no more,
Leman’s is fair; but think not I
forsake
The sweet remembrance of a dearer shore:
Sad havoc Time must with my memory make
Ere that or thou can fade
these eyes before;
Though, like all things which I have loved,
they are
Resign’d for ever, or divided far.
XI.
The world is all before me; I but ask
Of nature that with which she will comply—
It is but in her summer sun to bask,
To mingle with the quiet of her sky,
To see her gentle fare without a mask,
And never gaze on it with apathy.
She was my early friend, and now shall
be
My sister—till I look again
on thee.
XII.
I can reduce all feelings but this one:
And that I would not;—for at
length I see
Such scenes as those wherein my life begun.
The earliest—even the only
paths for me—
Had I but sooner learnt the crowd to shun,
I had been better than I now can be:
The passions which have torn me would
have slept:
I had not suffered, and thou hadst
not wept.
XIII.
With false ambition what had I to do?
Little with love, and least of all with
fame;
And yet they came unsought, and with me
grew,
And made me all which they can make—a
name.
Yet this was not the end I did pursue;
Surely I once beheld a nobler aim.
But all is over—I am one the
more
To baffled millions which have gone before.
XIV.
And for the future, this world’s
future may
From me demand but little of my care;
I have outlived myself by many a day;
Having survived so many things that were;
My years have been no slumber, but the
prey
Of ceaseless vigils; for I had the share
Of life that might have filled a century,
Before its fourth in time had passed me
by.