TO AUGUSTA.
I.
My sister! my sweet sister! if a name
Dearer and purer were, it should be thine,
Mountains and seas divide us, but I claim
No tears, but tenderness to answer mine.
Go where I will, to me thou art the same—
A loved regret which I would not resign.
There yet are two things in my destiny—
A world to roam through, and a home with
thee.
II.
The first were nothing—had
I still the last,
It were the haven of my happiness;
But other claims and other ties thou hast,
And mine is not the wish to make them
less.
A strange doom is thy father’s son’s,
and part
Recalling, as it lies beyond redress;
Reversed for him our grandsire’s
fate of yore—
He had no rest at sea, nor I on shore.
III.
If my inheritance of storms hath been
In other elements, and on the rocks
Of perils overlook’d or unforeseen,
I have sustain’d my share of worldly
shocks,
The fault was mine; nor do I seek to screen
My errors with defensive paradox;
I have been cunning in mine overthrow,
The careful pilot of my proper woe.
IV.
Mine were my faults, and mine be their
reward.
My whole life was a contest, since the
day
That gave me being, gave me that which
marr’d
The gift—a fate, or will, that
walk’d astray;
And I at times have found the struggle
hard,
And thought of shaking off my bonds of
clay:
But now I fain would for a time survive,
If but to see what next can well arrive.
V.
Kingdoms and empires in my little day
I have outlived, and yet I am not old;
And when I look on this, the petty spray
Of my own years of trouble, which have
roll’d
Like a wild bay of breakers, melts away:
Something—I know not what—does
still uphold
A spirit of slight patience—not
in vain,
Even for its own sake, do we purchase
pain.
VI.
Perhaps the workings of defiance stir
Within me—or perhaps a cold
despair,
Brought on when ills habitually recur—
Perhaps a kinder clime, or purer air,
(For even to this may change of soul refer,
And with light armour we may learn to
bear,)
Have taught me a strange quiet, which
was not
The chief companion of a calmer lot.
VII.