whatever sort of a fool,—­blind, unkind, ridiculous, obstinate or wilful—­take your choice, little sweet mother, you’ll remember occasions that were fitted by each of these—­you look at me with those shrewd sweet eyes that always somehow have a laugh in them, and say some little thing that shows you are brushing aside all the ugly froth of nonsense, and are intelligently and with perfect detachment searching for the reason.  And having found the reason you understand and forgive; for of course there always is a reason when ordinary people, not born fiends, are disagreeable.  I’m sure that’s why we’ve been so happy together,—­because you’ve never taken anything I’ve done or said that was foolish or unkind personally.  You’ve always known it was just so much irrelevant rubbish, just an excrescence, a passing sickness; never, never your real Chris who loves you.

Good-bye, my own blessed mother.  It’s long past bedtime.  Tomorrow I’m to have my first regular lesson with Kloster.  And tomorrow I ought to get a letter from you.  You will take care of yourself, won’t you?  You wouldn’t like me to be anxious all this way off, would you?  Anxious, and not sure?

  Your Chris.

  Berlin, Tuesday, June 2nd, 1914.

Darling mother, I’ve just got your two letters, two lovely long ones at once, and I simply can’t wait till next Sunday to tell you how I rejoiced over them, so I’m going to squander 20 pfennigs just on that.  I’m not breaking my rule and writing on a day that isn’t Sunday, because I’m not really writing.  This isn’t a letter, it’s a kiss.  How glad I am you’re so well and getting on so comfortably.  And I’m well and happy too, because I’m so busy,—­you can’t think how busy.  I’m working harder than I’ve ever done in my life, and Kloster is pleased with me.  So now that I’ve had letters from you there seems very little left in the world to want, and I go about on the tips of my toes.  Good-bye my beloved one, till Sunday.

  Chris.

Oh, I must just tell you that at my lesson yesterday I played the Ernst F sharp minor concerto,—–­the virtuoso, firework thing, you know, with Kloster putting in bits of the orchestra part on the piano every now and then because he wanted to see what I could do in the way of gymnastics.  He laughed when I had finished, and patted my shoulder, and said, “Very good acrobatics.  Now we will do no more of them.  We will apply ourselves to real music.”  And he said I was to play him what I could of the Bach Chaconne.

I was so happy, little mother.  Kloster leading me about among the wonders of Bach, was like being taken by the hand by some great angel and led through heaven.

  Berlin, Sunday, June 7th, 1914.