and being accommodated with an orange-box. Little
rectification of such distorted views of life was
to be expected from Moses Ansell, who went down to
his grave without seeing even a circus, and had no
interest in art apart from the “Police News”
and his “Mizrach” and the synagogue decorations.
Even when Esther’s sceptical instinct drove her
to inquire of her father how people knew that Moses
got the Law on Mount Sinai, he could only repeat in
horror that the Books of Moses said so, and could
never be brought to see that his arguments travelled
on roundabouts. She sometimes regretted that
her brilliant brother Benjamin had been swallowed
up by the orphan asylum, for she imagined she could
have discussed many a knotty point with him.
Solomon was both flippant and incompetent. But
in spite of her theoretical latitudinarianism, in
practice she was pious to the point of fanaticism and
could scarce conceive the depths of degradation of
which she heard vague horror-struck talk. There
were Jews about—grown-up men and women,
not insane—who struck lucifer matches on
the Sabbath and housewives who carelessly mixed their
butter-plates with their meat-plates even when they
did not actually eat butter with meat. Esther
promised herself that, please God, she would never
do anything so wicked when she grew up. She at
least would never fail to light the Sabbath candles
nor to
kasher the meat. Never was child
more alive to the beauty of duty, more open to the
appeal of virtue, self-control, abnegation. She
fasted till two o’clock on the Great White Fast
when she was seven years old and accomplished the
perfect feat at nine. When she read a simple little
story in a prize-book, inculcating the homely moralities
at which the cynic sneers, her eyes filled with tears
and her breast with unselfish and dutiful determinations.
She had something of the temperament of the stoic,
fortified by that spiritual pride which does not look
for equal goodness in others; and though she disapproved
of Solomon’s dodgings of duty, she did not sneak
or preach, even gave him surreptitious crusts of bread
before he had said his prayers, especially on Saturdays
and Festivals when the praying took place in
Shool
and was liable to be prolonged till mid-day.
Esther often went to synagogue and sat in the ladies’
compartment. The drone of the “Sons of
the Covenant” downstairs was part of her consciousness
of home, like the musty smell of the stairs, or Becky’s
young men through whom she had to plough her way when
she went for the morning milk, or the odors of Mr.
Belcovitch’s rum or the whirr of his machines,
or the bent, snuffy personality of the Hebrew scholar
in the adjoining garret, or the dread of Dutch Debby’s
dog that was ultimately transformed to friendly expectation.
Esther led a double life, just as she spoke two tongues.
The knowledge that she was a Jewish child, whose people
had had a special history, was always at the back of
her consciousness; sometimes it was brought to the
front by the scoffing rhymes of Christian children,
who informed her that they had stuck a piece of pork
upon a fork and given it to a member of her race.