knowing that the poor Jew never exchanges his self-respect
for respect for his benefactor, but takes by way of
rightful supplement to his income. She did not
drive families into trickery, like ladies of the West,
by being horrified to find them eating meat.
If she presided at a stall at a charitable sale of
clothing, she was not disheartened if articles were
snatched from under her hand, nor did she refuse loans
because borrowers sometimes merely used them to evade
the tallyman by getting their jewelry at cash prices.
She not only gave alms to the poor, but made them
givers, organizing their own farthings into a powerful
auxiliary of the institutions which helped them.
Hannah’s sweet patience soothed Esther, who
had no natural aptitude for personal philanthropy;
the primitive, ordered pieties of the Reb’s
household helping to give her calm. Though she
accepted the inevitable, and had laughed in melancholy
mockery at the exaggerated importance given to love
by the novelists (including her cruder self), she
dreaded meeting Raphael Leon. It was very unlikely
her whereabouts would penetrate to the West; and she
rarely went outside of the Ghetto by day, or even walked
within it in the evening. In the twilight, unless
prostrated by headache, she played on Hannah’s
disused old-fashioned grand piano. It had one
cracked note which nearly always spoiled the melody;
she would not have the note repaired, taking a morbid
pleasure in a fantastic analogy between the instrument
and herself. On Friday nights after the Sabbath-hymns
she read The Flag of Judah. She was not
surprised to find Reb Shemuel beginning to look askance
at his favorite paper. She noted a growing tendency
in it to insist mainly on the ethical side of Judaism,
salvation by works being contrasted with the salvation
by spasm of popular Christianity. Once Kingsley’s
line, “Do noble things, not dream them all day
long,” was put forth as “Judaism versus
Christianity in a nut-shell;” and the writer
added, “for so thy dreams shall become noble,
too.” Sometimes she fancied phrases and
lines of argument were aimed at her. Was it the
editor’s way of keeping in touch with her, using
his leaders as a medium of communication—a
subtly sweet secret known only to him and her?
Was it fair to his readers? Then she would remember
his joke about the paper being started merely to convert
her, and she would laugh. Sometimes he repeated
what he already said to her privately, so that she
seemed to hear him talking.
Then she would shake her head, and say, “I love you for your blindness, but I have the terrible gift of vision.”
CHAPTER XIV.
SIDNEY SETTLES DOWN.