She found Lady Emily there with a paper in her hand. “Lend me your ears, Mary,” cried she, “while I read these lines to you. Don’t be afraid, there are no secrets in them, or at least none that you or I will be a whit the wiser for, as they are truly in a most mystic strain. I found them lying upon this table, and they are in Frederick’s handwriting, for I see he affects the soupirant at present; and it seems there has been a sort of a sentimental farce acted between Adelaide and him. He pretends that, although distractedly in love with her, he is not so selfish as even to wish her to marry him in preference to the Duke of Altamont; and Adelaide, not to be outdone in heroics, has also made it out that it is the height of virtue in her to espouse the Duke of Altamont, and sacrifice all the tenderest affections of her heart to duty! Duty! yes, the duty of being a Duchess, and of living in state and splendour with the man she secretly despises, to the pleasure of renouncing both for the man she loves; and so they have parted, and here, I suppose, are Lindore’s lucubrations upon it, intended as a souvenir for Adelaide, I presume. Now, night visions befriend me!
“The time returns when
o’er my wilder’d mind,
A thraldom came which did
each sense enshroud;
Not that I bowed in willing
chain confined,
But that a soften’d
atmosphere of cloud
Veiled every sense—conceal’d
th’ impending doom.
’Twas mystic night,
and I seem’d borne along
By pleasing dread—and
in a doubtful gloom,
Where fragrant incense and
the sound of song,
And all fair things we dream
of, floated by,
Lulling my fancy like a cradled
child,
Till that the dear and guileless
treachery,
Made me the wretch I am—so
lost, so wild—
A mingled feeling, neither
joy or grief,
Dwelt in my heart—I
knew not whence it came,
And—but that woe
is me! ’twas passing brief,
Even at this hour I fain would
feel the same!
I track’d a path of
flowers—but flowers among
Were hissing serpents and
drear birds of night,
That shot across and scared
with boding cries;
And yet deep interest lurked
in that affright,
Something endearing in those
mysteries,
Which bade me still the desperate
joy pursue,
Heedless of what might come—when
from mine eyes
The cloud should pass, or
what might then accrue.
The cloud has passed—the
blissful power is flown,
The flowers are wither’d—wither’d
all the scene.
But ah! the dear delusions
I have known
Are present still, with loved
though altered mien:
I tread the selfsame path
in heart unchanged;
But changed now is all that
path to me,
For where ’mong flowers
and fountains once I ranged
Are barren rocks and savage
scenery!”
Mary felt it was in vain to attempt to win her sister’s confidence, and she was too delicate to seek to wrest her secrets from her; she therefore took no notice of this effusion of love and disappointment, which she concluded it to be.