At last the woods rose; the rookery clustered dark; a loud cawing broke the morning stillness.  Strange delight inspired me:  on I hastened.  Another field crossed —­ a lane threaded —­ and there were the courtyard walls —­ the back offices:  the house itself, the rookery still hid.  “My first view of it shall be in front,” I determined, “where its bold battlements will strike the eye nobly at once, and where I can single out my master’s very window:  perhaps he will be standing at it —­ he rises early:  perhaps he is now walking in the orchard, or on the pavement in front.  Could I but see him! —­ but a moment!  Surely, in that case, I should not be so mad as to run to him?  I cannot tell —­ I am not certain.  And if I did —­ what then?  God bless him!  What then?  Who would be hurt by my once more tasting the life his glance can give me?  I rave:  perhaps at this moment he is watching the sun rise over the Pyrenees, or on the tideless sea of the south.”

I had coasted along the lower wall of the orchard —­ turned its angle:  there was a gate just there, opening into the meadow, between two stone pillars crowned by stone balls.  From behind one pillar I could peep round quietly at the full front of the mansion.  I advanced my head with precaution, desirous to ascertain if any bedroom window-blinds were yet drawn up:  battlements, windows, long front —­ all from this sheltered station were at my command.

The crows sailing overhead perhaps watched me while I took this survey.  I wonder what they thought.  They must have considered I was very careful and timid at first, and that gradually I grew very bold and reckless.  A peep, and then a long stare; and then a departure from my niche and a straying out into the meadow; and a sudden stop full in front of the great mansion, and a protracted, hardy gaze towards it.  “What affectation of diffidence was this at first?” they might have demanded; “what stupid regardlessness now?”

Hear an illustration, reader.

A lover finds his mistress asleep on a mossy bank; he wishes to catch a glimpse of her fair face without waking her.  He steals softly over the grass, careful to make no sound; he pauses —­ fancying she has stirred:  he withdraws:  not for worlds would he be seen.  All is still:  he again advances:  he bends above her; a light veil rests on her features:  he lifts it, bends lower; now his eyes anticipate the vision of beauty —­ warm, and blooming, and lovely, in rest.  How hurried was their first glance!  But how they fix!  How he starts!  How he suddenly and vehemently clasps in both arms the form he dared not, a moment since, touch with his finger!  How he calls aloud a name, and drops his burden, and gazes on it wildly!  He thus grasps and cries, and gazes, because he no longer fears to waken by any sound he can utter —­ by any movement he can make.  He thought his love slept sweetly:  he finds she is stone dead.