G.W.C.

I.

SECESSION.

New Orleans, Dec. 1, 1860.—­I understand it now.  Keeping journals is for those who can not, or dare not, speak out.  So I shall set up a journal, being only a rather lonely young girl in a very small and hated minority.  On my return here in November, after a foreign voyage and absence of many months, I found myself behind in knowledge of the political conflict, but heard the dread sounds of disunion and war muttered in threatening tones.  Surely no native-born woman loves her country better than I love America.  The blood of one of its revolutionary patriots flows in my veins, and it is the Union for which he pledged his “life, fortune, and sacred honor” that I love, not any divided or special section of it.  So I have been reading attentively and seeking light from foreigners and natives on all questions at issue.  Living from birth in slave countries, both foreign and American, and passing through one slave insurrection in early childhood, the saddest and also the pleasantest features of slavery have been familiar.  If the South goes to war for slavery, slavery is doomed in this country.  To say so is like opposing one drop to a roaring torrent.  This is a good time to follow St. Paul’s advice that women should refrain from speaking, but they are speaking more than usual and forcing others to speak against their will.

Sunday, Dec.—­, 1860.—­In this season for peace I had hoped for a lull in the excitement, yet this day has been full of bitterness.  “Come, G.,” said Mrs. F. at breakfast, “leave your church for to-day and come with us to hear Dr. ——­ on the situation.  He will convince you.”  “It is good to be convinced,” I said; “I will go.”  The church was crowded to suffocation with the elite of New Orleans.  The preacher’s text was, “Shall we have fellowship with the stool of iniquity which frameth mischief as a law?” ...  The sermon was over at last and then followed a prayer ...  Forever blessed be the fathers of the Episcopal Church for giving us a fixed liturgy!  When we met at dinner Mrs. F. exclaimed, “Now, G., you heard him prove from the Bible that slavery is right and that therefore secession is.  Were you not convinced?” I said, “I was so busy thinking how completely it proved too that Brigham Young is right about polygamy that it quite weakened the force of the argument for me.”  This raised a laugh, and covered my retreat.

Jan. 26, 1861.—­The solemn boom of cannon today announced that the convention have passed the ordinance of secession.  We must take a reef in our patriotism and narrow it down to State limits.  Mine still sticks out all around the borders of the State.  It will be bad if New Orleans should secede from Louisiana and set up for herself.  Then indeed I would be “cabined, cribbed, confined.”  The faces in the house are jubilant to-day.  Why is it so easy for them and not for me to “ring out the old, ring in the new”?  I am out of place.