This introduction fixed my character and destiny.  I was now in my sixteenth year, doubtless of engaging though not striking appearance; I had the timidity of a loving nature, always afraid of giving offence; and I was quite without knowledge of the world or of manners.  I arrived on Palm Sunday, 1728.  Mme. de Warens had left the house for church; I ran after her, saw her, spoke to her—­how well do I remember the place, so often in later days wet with my tears and covered with kisses!

I saw an enchanting form, a countenance full of graciousness, a dazzling colour, blue eyes beaming kindness; you may imagine that my conversion was from that moment decided.  Smiling, she read the good priest’s letter, and sent me back to the house for breakfast.

Louise Eleonore de Warens, daughter of a noble family of Vevai, in the Vaud country, had early married M. de Warens, of Lausanne.  The marriage was childless and otherwise unfortunate; and the young wife, exasperated by some domestic difficulty, had abandoned her husband and her country, and crossing the lake, had thrown herself at the feet of the king.  He took her under his protection, gave her a moderate pension, and for fear of scandal sent her to Annecy, where she renounced her errors at the Convent of the Visitation.

She had been six years at Annecy when I met her, and was now twenty-eight years of age.  Her beauty was still in its first radiance, and her smile was angelic.  She was short of stature, but it was impossible to imagine more beautiful features or hands.  Her education had been very desultory; she had learned more from lovers than from teachers.  She had a strong taste for empirical medicine and for alchemy, and was always compounding elixirs, tinctures and balms, some of which she regarded as valuable secrets.  So it was that charlatans, trading on her weakness, made her consume, amid drugs and furnaces, a talent and a spirit which might have distinguished her in the highest societies.  Yet her loving and sweet character, her compassion for the unhappy, her inexhaustible goodness and her open and gay humour never changed; and even when old age was coming on, in the midst of poverty and varied misfortunes, her inward serenity preserved to the end the charming gaiety of her youth.  All her mistakes arose from a restless activity which demanded incessant occupation.  She thirsted, not for intrigues, but for enterprises.

Well, the first sight of Mme. de Warens inspired me not only with the liveliest attachment, but with an entire trust which was never disappointed.  Her presence filled my whole being with peace and confidence.

Three Years in Turin

My situation was discussed with the Bishop, and it was decided that I should go to Turin and remain for a time at an institution devoted to the instruction of catechumens.  Thither I went, regarding myself as the pupil, the friend, and almost the lover, of Mme. de Warens.  The great doors closed upon me, and here I was instructed for several weeks in very indifferent company.  At length, having been received into the church, I found myself in the street with twenty francs in my pocket, and the counsel that I should be a good Christian.