I felt an irresistible impulse to become acquainted
with as many parts of the world as my professional
avocations would permit, and I was determined not
to rest satisfied until I had completed the circumnavigation
of the globe. But at the early age of twenty-five,
while these resolves were strong, and the enthusiasm
of youth was fresh and sanguine, my present affliction
came upon me. It is impossible to describe the
state of my mind at the prospect of losing my sight,
and of being, as I then supposed, deprived by that
misfortune of the power of indulging in my cherished
project. Even the suspense which I suffered,
during the period when my medical friends were uncertain
of the issue, appeared to me a greater misery than
the final knowledge of the calamity itself. At
last I entreated them to be explicit, and to let me
know the worst, as that could be more easily endured
than the agonies of doubt. Their answer, instead
of increasing my uneasiness, dispelled it. I
felt a comparative relief in being no longer deceived
by false hopes; and the certainty that my case was
beyond remedy determined me to seek, in some pursuit
adapted to my new state of existence, a congenial
field of employment and consolation. At that
time my health was so delicate, and my nerves so depressed
by previous anxiety, that I did not suffer myself
to indulge in the expectation that I should ever be
able to travel out of my own country alone; but the
return of strength and vigour, and the concentration
of my views upon one object, gradually brought back
my old passion, which at length became as firmly established
as it was before. The elasticity of my original
feelings being thus restored, I ventured, alone and
sightless, upon my dangerous and novel course; and
I cannot look back upon the scenes through which I
have passed, the great variety of circumstances by
which I have been surrounded, and the strange experiences
with which I have become familiar, without an intense
aspiration of gratitude for the bounteous dispensation
of the Almighty, which enabled me to conquer the greatest
of human evils by the cultivation of what has been
to me the greatest of human enjoyments, and to supply
the void of sight with countless objects of intellectual
gratification. To those who inquire what pleasures
I can derive from the invigorating spirit of travelling
under the privation I suffer, I may be permitted to
reply in the words of the poet,
Unknown those powers that raise the soul
to flame,
Catch every nerve, and vibrate through
the frame;
Their level life is but a smouldering
fire,
Unquench’d by want, unfanned by
strong desire.
Or perhaps, with more propriety, I may ask, who could
endure life without a purpose, without the pursuit
of some object, in the attainment of which his moral
energies should be called into healthful activity?
I can confidently assert that the effort of travelling
has been beneficial to me in every way; and I know
not what might have been the consequence, if the excitement
with which I looked forward to it had been disappointed,
or how much my health might have suffered but for
its refreshing influence.