your potted char, Swiss cheeses, French pies, early
grapes, muscadines, I impart as freely unto my friends
as to myself. They are but self extended, but
pardon me if I stop somewhere. Where the fine
feeling of benevolence giveth a higher smack than
the sensual rarity, there my friends (or any good
man) may command me; but pigs are pigs, and I myself
therein am nearest to myself. Nay, I should think
it an affront, an undervaluing done to Nature who
bestowed such a boon upon me, if in a churlish mood
I parted with the precious gift. One of the bitterest
pangs of remorse I ever felt was when a child—when
my kind old aunt had strained her pocket-strings to
bestow a sixpenny whole plum-cake upon me. In
my way home through the Borough I met a venerable
old man, not a mendicant, but thereabouts; a look-beggar,
not a verbal petitionist; and in the coxcombry of taught
charity I gave away the cake to him. I walked
on a little in all the pride of an Evangelical peacock,
when of a sudden my old aunt’s kindness crossed
me; the sum it was to her; the pleasure she had a right
to expect that I—not the old impostor—should
take in eating her cake; the ingratitude by which,
under the colour of a Christian virtue, I had frustrated
her cherished purpose. I sobbed, wept, and took
it to heart so grievously, that I think I never suffered
the like; and I was right. It was a piece of
unfeeling hypocrisy, and it proved a lesson to me
ever after. The cake has long been masticated,
consigned to the dunghill with the ashes of that unseasonable
pauper. But when Providence, who is better to
us than all our aunts, gives me a pig, remembering
my temptation and my fall, I shall endeavour to act
towards it more in the spirit of the donor’s
purpose.
Yours (short of pig) to command in every thing.
To BERNARD BARTON
A blessing in disguise
9 Jan. 1823.
’Throw yourself on the world without any rational
plan of support, beyond what the chance employ of
booksellers would afford you’!!!
Throw yourself rather, my dear sir, from the steep
Tarpeian rock, slap-dash headlong upon iron spikes.
If you have but five consolatory minutes between the
desk and the bed, make much of them, and live a century
in them, rather than turn slave to the booksellers.
They are Turks and Tartars when they have poor authors
at their beck. Hitherto you have been at arm’s
length from them. Come not within their grasp.
I have known many authors want for bread, some repining,
others envying the blessed security of a counting-house,
all agreeing they had rather have been tailors, weavers—what
not? rather than the things they were. I have
known some starved, some to go mad, one dear friend
literally dying in a workhouse. You know not what
a rapacious, dishonest set these booksellers are.
Ask even Southey, who (a single case almost) has made
a fortune by book-drudgery, what he has found them.