enthusiastic self-oblivion those who have been so well
pleased that I should, year after year, flow with
a hundred nameless rills into
their main stream,
that they could find nothing but cold praise and effective
discouragement of every attempt of mine to roll onward
in a distinct current of my own; who
admitted
that the
Ancient Mariner, the
Christabel,
the
Remorse, and some pages of the
Friend
were not without merit, but were abundantly anxious
to acquit their judgements of any blindness to the
very numerous defects. Yet they
knew that
to
praise, as mere praise, I was characteristically,
almost constitutionally, indifferent. In sympathy
alone I found at once nourishment and stimulus; and
for sympathy
alone did my heart crave.
They knew, too, how long and faithfully I have acted
on the maxim, never to admit the
faults of
a work of genius to those who denied or were incapable
of feeling and understanding the
beauties;
not from wilful partiality, but as well knowing that
in
saying truth I should, to such critics,
convey falsehood. If, in one instance, in my
literary life I have appeared to deviate from this
rule, first, it was not till the fame of the writer
(which I had been for fourteen years successfully
toiling like a second Ali to build up) had been established;
and secondly and chiefly, with the purpose and, I may
safely add, with the
effect of rescuing the
necessary task from Malignant Defamers, and in order
to set forth the excellences and the trifling proportion
which the defects bore to the excellences. But
this, my dear sir, is a mistake to which affectionate
natures are too liable, though I do not remember to
have ever seen it noticed—the mistaking
those who are desirous and well pleased to be loved
by you, for those who love you. Add, as
a more general cause, the fact that I neither am nor
ever have been of any party. What wonder, then,
if I am left to decide which has been my worst enemy,
the broad, pre-determined abuse of the
Edinburgh
Review, &c., or the cold and brief compliments,
with the warm
regrets, of the
Quarterly?
After all, however, I have now but one sorrow relative
to the ill success of my literary toils (and toils
they have been,
though not undelightful toils),
and this arises wholly from the almost insurmountable
difficulties which the anxieties of to-day oppose to
my completion of the great work, the form and materials
of which it has been the employment of the best and
most genial hours of the last twenty years to mature
and collect.
If I could but have a tolerably numerous audience
to my first, or first and second Lectures on the History
of Philosophy, I should entertain a strong hope
of success, because I know that these lectures will
be found by far the most interesting and entertaining
of any that I have yet delivered, independent of the
more permanent interest of rememberable instruction.
Few and unimportant would the errors of men be, if
they did but know, first, what they themselves meant;
and, secondly, what the words mean by which
they attempt to convey their meaning, and I can conceive
no subject so well fitted to exemplify the mode and
the importance of these two points as the History
of Philosophy, treated as in the scheme of these lectures.