the other hand,’ she added with lowered voice,
’he is so accustomed to take advantage of strangers
that it’s quite possible he wouldn’t treat
friends any better. You must have somebody at
your side who has your interests at heart.’
I pointed to her. ’I am honest,’
she said, laying her hand upon her heart. Her
eyes, which were ordinarily of a greyish hue, shone
bright blue, the blue of the sky. ’But
I’m in a peculiar position. Our business
yields little profit, and so my father intends to
set himself up as an innkeeper. Now that’s
no place for me, and nothing remains for me, therefore,
but needlework, for I will not go out as a servant.’
As she said this she looked like a queen. ‘As
a matter of fact I’ve had another offer,’
she continued, drawing a letter from her apron and
throwing it half reluctantly upon the counter.
‘But in that case I should be obliged to leave
the city.’ ‘Would you have to go
far away?’ I asked. ’Why? What
difference would that make to you?’ I told her
I should move to the same place. ’You’re
a child,’ she said. ’That wouldn’t
do at all, and there are quite different matters to
be considered. But if you have confidence in me
and like to be near me, buy the millinery store next
door, which is for sale. I understand the business,
and you can count on a reasonable profit on your investment.
Besides, keeping the books and attending to the correspondence
would supply you with a proper occupation. What
might develop later on, we’ll not discuss at
present. But you would have to change, for I
hate effeminate men.’ I had jumped up and
seized my hat. ‘What’s the matter?
Where are you going?’ she asked. ’To
countermand everything!’ I said breathlessly.
‘Countermand what?’ I then told her of
my plan for the establishment of a copying and information
bureau. ‘There isn’t much in that,’
she suggested. ’Information anybody can
get for himself, and everybody has learned to write
in school.’ I remarked that music was also
to be copied, which was something that not everybody
could do. ‘So you’re back at your
old nonsense?’ she burst out. ’Let
your music go, and think of more important matters.
Besides, you’re not able to manage a business
yourself.’ I explained that I had found
a partner. ‘A partner?’ she exclaimed.
’You’ll surely be cheated. I hope
you haven’t advanced any money?’ I was
trembling without knowing why. ‘Did you
advance any money?’ she asked once more.
I admitted that I had advanced the three thousand
gulden for the initial equipment. ’Three
thousand gulden!’ she exclaimed; ‘as much
as that?’ ‘The rest,’ I continued,
‘is deposited with the court, and that’s
safe at all events.’ ‘What, still
more?’ she screamed. I mentioned the amount
of the bond. ‘And did you pay it over to
the court personally?’ ‘My partner paid
it.’ ‘But you have a receipt for
it.’ ‘I haven’t.’
’And what is the name of your fine partner?’
she asked. It was a relief to be able to mention
my father’s secretary.