Years might elapse before the final exposition, years of utter ruin to my prospects and my hopes.  Wentworth might be married by that time, or indifferent, or dead; Ernie too old to make the matter of a year or two of consequence in the carrying out of the nefarious scheme to sustain which it would be so easy to summon and suborn witnesses.

All these possibilities represented themselves to me with frightful distinctness; my mind became imbued with them to the exclusion of all else—­of reason even.  I was literally panic-stricken, and nothing but flight could satisfy my instinct, my impulse of self-preservation.  I must go, even if blown like a leaf before the gales of heaven; must fly, if even to certainty of destruction.  I had felt this necessity once before, be it remembered, but never so stringently, so morbidly as now.  I was yielding under the agony, the anxiety incident to my condition; my nervous system, too severely taxed, was breaking down, and it would succumb entirely, unless relief came to me (of this I felt convinced), before another weary month should roll away.  Had I been imprisoned for a certain term of years as an expiation for crimes, I think I could have borne it better; but the injustice, the uncertainty of these proceedings were more than I could sustain.

I fell asleep, I remember, on the night of my interview with Gregory—­alias Englehart—­to dream confusedly of Baron Trenck and his iron collar, and the Princess Amelia and her unmitigated grief, and it seemed to me that I was given to drink from a cup the poor prisoner had carved (as memoirs tell us he carved and sold many such), filled with a sort of bitter wine, by the man in the iron mask—­so vividly did Fancy, mixing her ingredients, typify the anguish of my waking moments, and reproduce its anxieties, in dreams of night that could not be controlled.

When I awoke in the morning it was to lie quietly, and listen to the doleful voice of Sabra, for such had been Dinah’s Congo name, uplifted in what she called a “speritual” as she cleaned the brass mountings of the grate and kindled its tardy fires.  With very slight alteration and adjustment, this picturesque and dramatic Obi hymn is given in this place, just as I jotted it down in my diary, thus imprinting it on my memory from her own dolphin-like lips and bellows-like lungs.  Her forefathers, she informed me with considerable pride, had been snake-worshipers, and she certainly inherited their tendency to treat the worst enemy of mankind with respectful adoration.

It served to divert my mind from its one fixed idea for a little time to arrange this singular hymn, which, together with those she had given voice to on the raft, proved her poetic powers.  For Sabra assured me that this gift of sacred song had come to her one day when she was washing her master’s linen, and that she had felt it run cold streaks down her back and through her brain, and that from that time she was uplifted to sing “sperituals” by spells and seasons.  This, her longest and most successful inspiration, I now lay before the reader: