Fenwick's Career eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 376 pages of information about Fenwick's Career.

Fenwick's Career eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 376 pages of information about Fenwick's Career.

The recollection startled him.  Romney!  Involuntarily there flashed across him Phoebe’s use of the Romney story—­her fierce comments on the deserted wife—­the lovely mistress.  Perhaps, while she stood looking at the portrait in his studio, she was thinking of Lady Hamilton, and all sorts of other ludicrous and shameful things!

And this, all the while, was the reality—­this pure, ethereal being, in whose presence he was already a better and a more hopeful man!—­who seemed to bring a fellow comfort, and moral renewal, in the mere touch of her kind hand.

The shock of inner debate still further weakened his self-control.  He slipped, hardly knowing how or why, into a far more intimate confession of himself than he had yet made to her.  In the morning he had given her the outer history of his life, during the year of her absence.  But this was the inner history of a man’s weakness and failure—­of his quarrels and hatreds, his baffled ambitions and ideals.  She put it together as best she could from his hurried, excited talk—­from stories half told, fierce charges against ‘charlatans’ and ‘intriguers,’ mingled with half-serious, half-comic returns upon himself, attacks on all the world, alternating with a ruthless self-analysis—­the talk of a man who challenges society one moment with an angry ’J’accuse!’—­and sees himself the next—­sardonically—­as the chief obstacle in his own way.

Then suddenly a note of intense loneliness—­anguish—­inexplicable despair.  Eugenie could not stop it, could not withdraw herself.  There was a strange feeling that it brought her the answer to her prayer.—­They hurried on through the lower walks of the Park—­plunging now through tunnelled depths of shade, and now emerging into spaces where sunset and moonrise rained a mingled influence on glimmering water, on the dim upturned faces of Ceres or Flora, or the limbs of flower-crowned nymphs and mermaids.  It seemed impossible to turn homeward, to break off their conversation.  When they reached the ‘Bassin de Neptune’ they left the Park, turning down the Trianon Avenue, in the growing dark, till they saw to their right, behind its iron gates, the gleaming facade of the Petit Trianon; woods all about them, and to their left, again, the shimmer of wide water.  Meanwhile the dying leaves, driven by the evening wind, descended on them in a soft and ceaseless shower; the woods, so significant and human in their planned and formal beauty, brought their ‘visionary majesties’ of moonlight and of gloom to bear on nerve and sense, turned all that was said and all that was felt, beneath their spell, to poetry.

Suddenly, at the Trianon gate, Eugenie stopped.

‘I’m very tired,’ she said, faintly.  ‘I am afraid we must go back.’

Fenwick denounced himself for a selfish brute; and they turned homeward.  But it was not physical fatigue she felt.  It was rather the burden of a soul thrown headlong upon hers—­the sudden appeal of a task which seemed to be given her by God—­for the bridling of her own heart, and the comforting and restoring of John Fenwick.  From all the conflicting emotion of an evening which changed her life, what remained—­or seemed to remain—­was a missionary call of duty and affection.  ‘Save him!—­and master thyself!’

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