Fair seed-time had my soul,
and I grew up
Fostered alike by beauty and by fear:
Much favoured in my birth-place, and no
less
In that beloved Vale to which erelong
We were transplanted [Y]—there
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For sports of wider range. Ere I
had told
Ten birth-days, [Z] when among the mountain
slopes
Frost, and the breath of frosty wind,
had snapped
The last autumnal crocus, [a] ’twas
my joy
With store of springes o’er my shoulder
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To range the open heights where woodcocks
run
Along the smooth green turf. [b] Through
half the night,
Scudding away from snare to snare, I plied
That anxious visitation;—moon
and stars
Were shining o’er my head.
I was alone, 315
And seemed to be a trouble to the peace
That dwelt among them. Sometimes
it befel
In these night wanderings, that a strong
desire
O’erpowered my better reason, and
the bird
Which was the captive of another’s
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Became my prey; and when the deed was
done
I heard among the solitary hills
Low breathings coming after me, and sounds
Of undistinguishable motion, steps
Almost as silent as the turf they trod.
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Nor less when spring had warmed the cultured
Vale, [c]
Moved we as plunderers where the mother-bird
Had in high places built her lodge; though
mean
Our object and inglorious, yet the end
Was not ignoble. Oh! when I have
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Above the raven’s nest, by knots
of grass
And half-inch fissures in the slippery
rock
But ill sustained, and almost (so it seemed)
Suspended by the blast that blew amain,
Shouldering the naked crag, [d] oh, at
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While on the perilous ridge I hung alone,
With what strange utterance did the loud
dry wind
Blow through my ear! the sky seemed not
a sky
Of earth—and with what motion
moved the clouds!
Dust as we are, the immortal
spirit grows 340
Like harmony in music; there is a dark
Inscrutable workmanship that reconciles
Discordant elements, makes them cling
together
In one society. How strange that
all
The terrors, pains, and early miseries,
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Regrets, vexations, lassitudes interfused
Within my mind, should e’er have
borne a part,
And that a needful part, in making up
The calm existence that is mine when I
Am worthy of myself! Praise to the
end! 350
Thanks to the means which Nature deigned
to employ;
Whether her fearless visitings, or those
That came with soft alarm, like hurtless
light
Opening the peaceful clouds; or she may
use
Severer interventions, ministry
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More palpable, as best might suit her
aim.