Well might my wishes be intense, my thoughts
Strong and perturbed, not doubting at
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But that the virtue of one paramount mind
Would have abashed those impious crests—have
quelled
Outrage and bloody power, and, in despite
Of what the People long had been and were
Through ignorance and false teaching,
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Of immaturity, and in the teeth
Of desperate opposition from without—
Have cleared a passage for just government,
And left a solid birthright to the State,
Redeemed, according to example given
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By ancient lawgivers.
In
this frame of mind,
Dragged by a chain of harsh necessity,
So seemed it,—now I thankfully
acknowledge,
Forced by the gracious providence of Heaven,—
To England I returned, [M] else (though
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That I both was and must be of small weight,
No better than a landsman on the deck
Of a ship struggling with a hideous storm)
Doubtless, I should have then made common
cause
With some who perished; haply perished
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A poor mistaken and bewildered offering,—
Should to the breast of Nature have gone
back,
With all my resolutions, all my hopes,
A Poet only to myself, to men
Useless, and even, beloved Friend! a soul
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To thee unknown!
Twice had the
trees let fall
Their leaves, as often Winter had put
on
His hoary crown, since I had seen the
surge
Beat against Albion’s shore, [O]
since ear of mine
Had caught the accents of my native speech
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Upon our native country’s sacred
ground.
A patriot of the world, how could I glide
Into communion with her sylvan shades,
Erewhile my tuneful haunt? It pleased
me more
To abide in the great City, [P] where
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The general air still busy with the stir
Of that first memorable onset made
By a strong levy of humanity
Upon the traffickers in Negro blood; [Q]
Effort which, though defeated, had recalled
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To notice old forgotten principles,
And through the nation spread a novel
heat
Of virtuous feeling. For myself,
I own
That this particular strife had wanted
power
To rivet my affections; nor did now
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Its unsuccessful issue much excite
My sorrow; for I brought with me the faith
That, if France prospered, good men would
not long
Pay fruitless worship to humanity,
And this most rotten branch of human shame,
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Object, so seemed it, of superfluous pains,
Would fall together with its parent tree.
What, then, were my emotions, when in
arms