Maintained even by the very name and thought
Of printed books and authorship, began
To melt away; and further, the dread awe 60
Of mighty names was softened down and seemed
Approachable, admitting fellowship
Of modest sympathy. Such aspect now,
Though not familiarly, my mind put on,
Content to observe, to achieve, and to enjoy. 65
All winter long, whenever
free to choose,
Did I by night frequent the College groves
And tributary walks; the last, and oft
The only one, who had been lingering there
Through hours of silence, till the porter’s
bell, 70
A punctual follower on the stroke of nine,
Rang with its blunt unceremonious voice,
Inexorable summons! Lofty elms,
Inviting shades of opportune recess,
Bestowed composure on a neighbourhood
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Unpeaceful in itself. A single tree
With sinuous trunk, boughs exquisitely
wreathed,
Grew there; [E] an ash which Winter for
himself
Decked out with pride, and with outlandish
grace:
Up from the ground, and almost to the
top, 80
The trunk and every master branch were
green
With clustering ivy, and the lightsome
twigs
And outer spray profusely tipped with
seeds
That hung in yellow tassels, while the
air
Stirred them, not voiceless. Often
have I stood 85
Foot-bound uplooking at this lovely tree
Beneath a frosty moon. The hemisphere
Of magic fiction, verse of mine perchance
May never tread; but scarcely Spenser’s
self
Could have more tranquil visions in his
youth, 90
Or could more bright appearances create
Of human forms with superhuman powers,
Than I beheld loitering on calm clear
nights
Alone, beneath this fairy work of earth.
On the vague reading of a
truant youth [F] 95
’Twere idle to descant. My
inner judgment
Not seldom differed from my taste in books.
As if it appertained to another mind,
And yet the books which then I valued
most
Are dearest to me now; for, having
scanned, 100
Not heedlessly, the laws, and watched
the forms
Of Nature, in that knowledge I possessed
A standard, often usefully applied,
Even when unconsciously, to things removed
From a familiar sympathy.—In
fine, 105
I was a better judge of thoughts than
words,
Misled in estimating words, not only
By common inexperience of youth,
But by the trade in classic niceties,
The dangerous craft of culling term and
phrase 110
From languages that want the living voice
To carry meaning to the natural heart;
To tell us what is passion, what is truth,
What reason, what simplicity and sense.