With kindred matter, ’twas to me, in truth,
A promise scarcely earthly. Instantly,
With one not richer than myself, I made
A covenant that each should lay aside 470
The moneys he possessed, and hoard up more,
Till our joint savings had amassed enough
To make this book our own. Through several months,
In spite of all temptation, we preserved
Religiously that vow; but firmness failed, 475
Nor were we ever masters of our wish.
And when thereafter to my
father’s house
The holidays returned me, there to find
That golden store of books which I had
left,
What joy was mine! How often in the
course 480
Of those glad respites, though a soft
west wind
Ruffled the waters to the angler’s
wish
For a whole day together, have I lain
Down by thy side, O Derwent! murmuring
stream,
On the hot stones, and in the glaring
sun, 485
And there have read, devouring as I read,
Defrauding the day’s glory, desperate!
Till with a sudden bound of smart reproach,
Such as an idler deals with in his shame,
I to the sport betook myself again.
490
A gracious spirit o’er
this earth presides,
And o’er the heart of man:
invisibly
It comes, to works of unreproved delight,
And tendency benign, directing those
Who care not, know not, think not what
they do. 495
The tales that charm away the wakeful
night
In Araby, romances; legends penned
For solace by dim light of monkish lamps;
Fictions, for ladies of their love, devised
By youthful squires; adventures endless,
spun 500
By the dismantled warrior in old age,
Out of the bowels of those very schemes
In which his youth did first extravagate;
These spread like day, and something in
the shape
Of these will live till man shall be no
more. 505
Dumb yearnings, hidden appetites, are
ours,
And they must have their food.
Our childhood sits,
Our simple childhood, sits upon a throne
That hath more power than all the elements.
I guess not what this tells of Being past,
510
Nor what it augurs of the life to come;
[Q]
But so it is, and, in that dubious hour,
That twilight when we first begin to see
This dawning earth, to recognise, expect,
And in the long probation that ensues,
515
The time of trial, ere we learn to live
In reconcilement with our stinted powers;
To endure this state of meagre vassalage,
Unwilling to forego, confess, submit,
Uneasy and unsettled, yoke-fellows
520
To custom, mettlesome, and not yet tamed