I have been harassed with the toil of verse,
Much pains and little progress, and at once
Some lovely Image in the song rose up
Full-formed, like Venus rising from the sea;
Then have I darted forwards to let 115
My hand upon his back with stormy joy,
Caressing him again and yet again.
And when at evening on the public way
I sauntered, like a river murmuring
And talking to itself when all things 120
Are still, the creature trotted on before;
Such was his custom; but whene’er he met
A passenger approaching, he would turn
To give me timely notice, and straightway,
Grateful for that admonishment, I 125
My voice, composed my gait, and, with the air
And mien of one whose thoughts are free, advanced
To give and take a greeting that might save
My name from piteous rumours, such as wait
On men suspected to be crazed in brain. 130
Those walks well worthy to be prized and
loved—
Regretted!—that word, too,
was on my tongue,
But they were richly laden with all good,
And cannot be remembered but with thanks
And gratitude, and perfect joy of heart—135
Those walks in all their freshness now
came back
Like a returning Spring. When first
I made
Once more the circuit of our little lake,
If ever happiness hath lodged with man,
That day consummate happiness was mine,
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Wide-spreading, steady, calm, contemplative.
The sun was set, or setting, when I left
Our cottage door, and evening soon brought
on
A sober hour, not winning or serene,
For cold and raw the air was, and untuned;
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But as a face we love is sweetest then
When sorrow damps it, or, whatever look
It chance to wear, is sweetest if the
heart
Have fulness in herself; even so with
me
It fared that evening. Gently did
my soul 150
Put off her veil, and, self-transmuted,
stood
Naked, as in the presence of her God.
While on I walked, a comfort seemed to
touch
A heart that had not been disconsolate:
Strength came where weakness was not known
to be, 155
At least not felt; and restoration came
Like an intruder knocking at the door
Of unacknowledged weariness. I took
The balance, and with firm hand weighed
myself.
—Of that external scene which round me
lay, 160
Little, in this abstraction, did I see;
Remembered less; but I had inward hopes
And swellings of the spirit, was rapt
and soothed,
Conversed with promises, had glimmering
views
How life pervades the undecaying mind;