No more: for now into
a populous plain
We must descend. A Traveller I am,
Whose tale is only of himself; even so,
So be it, if the pure of heart be prompt
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To follow, and if thou, my honoured Friend!
Who in these thoughts art ever at my side,
Support, as heretofore, my fainting steps.
It hath been told, that when
the first delight
That flashed upon me from this novel show
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Had failed, the mind returned into herself;
Yet true it is, that I had made a change
In climate, and my nature’s outward
coat
Changed also slowly and insensibly.
Full oft the quiet and exalted thoughts
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Of loneliness gave way to empty noise
And superficial pastimes; now and then
Forced labour, and more frequently forced
hopes;
And, worst of all, a treasonable growth
Of indecisive judgments, that impaired
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And shook the mind’s simplicity.—And
yet
This was a gladsome time. Could I
behold—
Who, less insensible than sodden clay
In a sea-river’s bed at ebb of tide,
Could have beheld,—with undelighted
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So many happy youths, so wide and fair
A congregation in its budding-time
Of health, and hope, and beauty, all at
once
So many divers samples from the growth
Of life’s sweet season—could
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That miscellaneous garland of wild flowers
Decking the matron temples of a place
So famous through the world? To me,
at least,
It was a goodly prospect: for, in
sooth,
Though I had learnt betimes to stand unpropped,
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And independent musings pleased me so
That spells seemed on me when I was alone,
Yet could I only cleave to solitude
In lonely places; if a throng was near
That way I leaned by nature; for my heart
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Was social, and loved idleness and joy.
Not seeking those who might
participate
My deeper pleasures (nay, I had not once,
Though not unused to mutter lonesome songs,
Even with myself divided such delight,
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Or looked that way for aught that might
be clothed
In human language), easily I passed
From the remembrances of better things,
And slipped into the ordinary works
Of careless youth, unburthened, unalarmed.
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Caverns there were within my mind
which sun
Could never penetrate, yet did there not
Want store of leafy arbours where
the light
Might enter in at will. Companionships,
Friendships, acquaintances, were welcome
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We sauntered, played, or rioted; we talked
Unprofitable talk at morning hours;