I was the Dreamer, they the
Dream; I roamed 30
Delighted through the motley spectacle;
Gowns, grave, or gaudy, doctors, students,
streets,
Courts, cloisters, flocks of churches,
gateways, towers:
Migration strange for a stripling of the
hills,
A northern villager.
As
if the change 35
Had waited on some Fairy’s wand,
at once
Behold me rich in monies, and attired
In splendid garb, with hose of silk, and
hair
Powdered like rimy trees, when frost is
keen.
My lordly dressing-gown, I pass it by,
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With other signs of manhood that supplied
The lack of beard.—The weeks
went roundly on,
With invitations, suppers, wine and fruit,
Smooth housekeeping within, and all without
Liberal, and suiting gentleman’s
array. 45
The Evangelist St. John my
patron was:
Three Gothic courts are his, and in the
first
Was my abiding-place, a nook obscure;
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Right underneath, the College kitchens
made
A humming sound, less tuneable than bees,
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But hardly less industrious; with shrill
notes
Of sharp command and scolding intermixed.
Near me hung Trinity’s loquacious
clock,
Who never let the quarters, night or day,
Slip by him unproclaimed, and told the
hours 55
Twice over with a male and female voice.
Her pealing organ was my neighbour too;
And from my pillow, looking forth by light
Of moon or favouring stars, I could behold
The antechapel where the statue stood
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Of Newton with his prism and silent face,
The marble index of a mind for ever
Voyaging through strange seas of Thought,
alone.
Of College labours, of the
Lecturer’s room
All studded round, as thick as chairs
could stand, 65
With loyal students faithful to their
books,
Half-and-half idlers, hardy recusants,
And honest dunces—of important
days,
Examinations, when the man was weighed
As in a balance! of excessive hopes,
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Tremblings withal and commendable fears,
Small jealousies, and triumphs good or
bad,
Let others that know more speak as they
know.
Such glory was but little sought by me,
And little won. Yet from the first
crude days 75
Of settling time in this untried abode,
I was disturbed at times by prudent thoughts,
Wishing to hope without a hope, some fears
About my future worldly maintenance,
And, more than all, a strangeness in the
mind, 80
A feeling that I was not for that hour,
Nor for that place. But wherefore
be cast down?
For (not to speak of Reason and her pure