Mild monastic faces in quiet collegiate
cloisters:
So let me offer a single and celibatarian
phrase a
Tribute to those whom perhaps you do not
believe I can honor.
But, from the tumult escaping, ’tis
pleasant, of drumming and
shouting,
Hither, oblivious awhile, to withdraw,
of the fact or the falsehood,
And amid placid regards and mildly courteous
greetings
Yield to the calm and composure and gentle
abstraction that reign o’er
Mild monastic faces in quiet collegiate
cloisters.
Terrible word, Obligation!
You should not, Eustace, you should not,
No, you should not have used it.
But, O great Heavens, I repel it!
Oh, I cancel, reject, disavow, and repudiate
wholly
Every debt in this kind, disclaim every
claim, and dishonor,
Yea, my own heart’s own writing,
my soul’s own signature! Ah, no!
I will be free in this; you shall not,
none shall, bind me.
No, my friend, if you wish to be told,
it was this above all things,
This that charmed me, ah, yes, even this,
that she held me to nothing.
No, I could talk as I pleased; come close;
fasten ties, as I fancied;
Bind and engage myself deep;—and
lo, on the following morning
It was all e’en as before, like
losings in games played for nothing.
Yes, when I came, with mean fears in my
soul, with a semi-performance
At the first step breaking down in its
pitiful role of evasion,
When to shuffle I came, to compromise,
not meet, engagements,
Lo, with her calm eyes there she met me
and knew nothing of it,—
Stood unexpecting, unconscious. She
spoke not of obligations,
Knew not of debt,—ah, no, I
believe you, for excellent reasons.
X.—CLAUDE TO EUSTACE.
Hang this thinking, at last! what good
is it? oh, and what evil!
Oh, what mischief and pain! like a clock
in a sick man’s chamber,
Ticking and ticking, and still through
each covert of slumber
pursuing.
What shall I do to thee, O
thou Preserver of Men? Have compassion!
Be favorable, and hear! Take from
me this regal knowledge!
Let me, contented and mute, with the beasts
of the field, my brothers,
Tranquilly, happily lie,—and
eat grass, like Nebuchadnezzar!
XI.—CLAUDE TO EUSTACE.
Tibur is beautiful, too, and the orchard
slopes, and the Anio
Falling, falling yet, to the ancient lyrical
cadence;
Tibur and Anio’s tide; and cool
from Lucretilis ever,
With the Digentian stream, and with the
Bandusian fountain,
Folded in Sabine recesses, the valley
and villa of Horace:—
So not seeing I sung; so seeing and listening
say I,
Here as I sit by the stream, as I gaze
at the cell of the Sibyl,
Here with Albunea’s home and the
grove of Tiburnus beside me.[A]
Tivoli beautiful is, and musical, O Teverone,
Dashing from mountain to plain, thy parted