That she is but for a space, an ad-interim solace and
pleasure,—
That in the end she shall yield to a perfect and absolute something,
Which I then for myself shall behold, and not another,—
Which amid fondest endearments, meantime I forget not, forsake not.
Ah, ye feminine souls, so loving and so exacting,
Since we cannot escape, must we even submit to deceive you?
Since, so cruel is truth, sincerity shocks and revolts you,
Will you have us your slaves to lie to you, flatter and—leave you?
VII.—CLAUDE TO EUSTACE.
Juxtaposition is great,—but,
you tell me, affinity greater.
Ah, my friend, there are many affinities,
greater and lesser,
Stronger and weaker; and each, by the
favor of juxtaposition,
Potent, efficient, in force,—for
a time; but none, let me tell you,
Save by the law of the land and the ruinous
force of the will, ah,
None, I fear me, at last quite sure to
be final and perfect.
Lo, as I pace in the street,
from the peasant-girl to the princess,
Homo sum, nihil humani a me alienum
puto,—
Vir sum, nihil faeminei,—and
e’en to the uttermost circle,
All that is Nature’s is I, and I
all things that are Nature’s.
Yes, as I walk, I behold, in a luminous,
large intuition,
That I can be and become anything that
I meet with or look at:
I am the ox in the dray, the ass with
the garden-stuff panniers;
I am the dog in the doorway, the kitten
that plays in the window,
Here on the stones of the ruin the furtive
and fugitive lizard,
Swallow above me that twitters, and fly
that is buzzing about me;
Yea, and detect, as I go, by a faint,
but a faithful assurance,
E’en from the stones of the street,
as from rocks or trees of the
forest,
Something of kindred, a common, though
latent vitality, greet me,
And, to escape from our strivings, mistakings,
misgrowths, and
perversions,
Fain could demand to return to that perfect
and primitive silence,
Fain be enfolded and fixed, as of old,
in their rigid embraces.
VIII.—CLAUDE TO EUSTACE.
And as I walk on my way, I behold them
consorting and coupling;
Faithful it seemeth, and fond, very fond,
very probably faithful;
And I proceed on my way with a pleasure
sincere and unmingled.
Life is beautiful, Eustace,
entrancing, enchanting to look at;
As are the streets of a city we pace while
the carriage is changing,
As is a chamber filled-in with harmonious,
exquisite pictures,
Even so beautiful Earth; and could we
eliminate only
This vile hungering impulse, this demon
within us of craving,
Life were beatitude, living a perfect
divine satisfaction.
IX.—CLAUDE TO EUSTACE.