“I believe you, my own Emmeline,” my kind mother said, as she again kissed me, and her voice was no longer so sorrowfully grave as it had been at first. “I am sure, now you know all the pain you were inflicting on both your parents, every effort will be put in force to remove it.” Did I deserve this speech, dear Mary? I do not think I did; for I often saw by mamma’s countenance I had grieved her, and yet made no effort to control myself, and so I told her. She smiled her own sweet, dear smile of approbation, and thanking me for my candour, said—
“If I say that by indulging in these gloomy fancies and appearing discontented, and repining when so many blessings are around you, my Emmeline will be doing her mother a real injury, by rendering my character questionable, not only in the eyes of the world, but of my most valued friends, will she not do all in her power to become her own light-hearted self again?”
“Injuring your character, dearest mother!” I exclaimed, with much surprise; “in what manner?”
“I will tell you, my love,” she replied; “there are many, not only of my acquaintances, but my friends, those whose opinions I really value, who believe I have been acting very wrongly all these years, in never having permitted you and Caroline to visit London. They think by this strict retirement I have quite unfitted you both for the station your rank demands you should fill. That by constantly living alone with us, and never mingling in society, you have imbibed notions that, to say the least, may be old-fashioned and romantic, and which will make you both feel uncomfortable when you are introduced in London. These fears never entered my mind; I wished you to receive ideas that were somewhat different to the generality of Fashion’s dictates, and I did not doubt but that the uncomfortable feeling, against which the letters of my friends often warned