to her daughters, at least her two youngest—the
rest are married—Lady Anne and Lady Lucy;
they appear very nice young women, agreeable companions,
as yet we have but little conversation in common,
though they appear to get on remarkably well with
Caroline. The Countess Elmore, a
nouvelle mariee,
but a delightful creature, so exquisitely lovely—such
eyes, hair, teeth; and yet these rare charms appear
entirely forgotten, or displayed only for the Earl
her husband, who is worthy of it all. He has talked
to me so often, that his wife also takes a great deal
of notice of me, and when they are of our party I
always pass an agreeable evening. The Earl is
well acquainted with our beautiful Devonshire, dearest
Mary; he admires country as I do, and he asked so
much about it one night last week, that I quite forgot
all my intentions about control, and actually talked
and apostrophised the Dart as I would to one of my
own brothers. I forgot everybody else in the
room, till I caught mamma’s glance fixed earnestly
on me, and then, my dear friend, I did not feel over
comfortable, however, I was soon at ease again, for
I saw it was only
warning, not
reproving;
and the next morning, when I sought her to tell her
all my delight of the preceding evening, she shared
in it all, and when I asked her, half fearfully, if
her glance meant I was passing the boundary she had
laid down, she said, “Not with the Earl of Elmore,
my dear Emmeline; but had you been talking in the same
animated strain to the Marquis of Alford, who, I believe,
took you into supper, I should say you had.”
“But I did not with him,” I exclaimed.
“No, my love,” she answered, laughing
at the anxiety that was, I felt, imprinted on my face.
“But why are you so terrified at the bare suggestion?”
“Because,” I said, and I felt I blushed,
“he is a single man; and I never can speak with
the same freedom to unmarried as to married men.”
“And why not?” she asked, and fixed her
most penetrating glance on my face.
I became more and more confused, dear Mary, for I
felt even to my own mother it would be difficult to
express my feelings on that subject. I managed,
however, with some difficulty, to say that I had often
heard Annie say she hated assemblies where there were
only married men, though there might be some fun in
endeavouring to excite the jealousy of their wives;
but it was nothing compared to the triumph of chaining
young men to her side, and by animated conversation
and smiles make each believe himself a special object
of attraction, when, in reality, she cared nothing
for either. “Rather than do that,”
I exclaimed, starting from the stool which I had occupied
at mamma’s feet, and with an energy I could
not restrain, “I would bury myself for ever in
a desert, and never look upon a face I loved; rather
than play upon the feelings of my fellow-creatures,
I would—I know not what I would not endure.
Mother,” I continued, “mother, if ever