black then, my dear—when I leaned over to
kiss you in your cradle—recalling all your
pretty, engaging little baby tricks, remembering how
fond and proud I was of you, and grieving over the
loss that I seemed to feel more and more acutely as
the years went on. The birth of my son only made
me long still more intensely for you, instead of consoling
me for your loss, or banishing you from my memory,
and when I saw him decked with rich laces and ribbons,
like a royal babe, and playing with his jewelled rattle,
I would think with an aching heart that perhaps at
that very moment my dear little daughter was suffering
from cold and hunger, or the unkind treatment of those
who had her in charge. Then I regretted deeply
that I had not taken you away from your mother in
the very beginning, and had you brought up as my daughter
should be—but when you were born I did not
dream of our parting. As years rolled on new
anxieties tortured me. I knew that you would
be beautiful, and how much you would have to suffer
from the dissolute men who hover about all young and
pretty actresses—my blood would boil as
I thought of the insults and affronts to which you
might be subjected, and from which I was powerless
to shield you—no words can tell what I
suffered. Affecting a taste for the theatre that
I did not possess, I never let an opportunity pass
to see every company of players that I could hear
of—hoping to find you at last among them.
But although I saw numberless young actresses, about
your age, not one of them could have been you, my
dear child—of that I was sure. So at
last I abandoned the hope of finding my long-lost
daughter, though it was a bitter trial to feel that
I must do so. The princess, my wife, had died
three years after our marriage, leaving me only one
child—Vallombreuse—whose ungovernable
disposition has always given me much trouble and anxiety.
A few days ago, at Saint Germain, I heard some of
the courtiers speak in terms of high praise of Herode’s
troupe, and what they said made me determine to go
and see one of their representations without delay,
while my heart beat high with a new hope—for
they especially lauded a young actress, called Isabelle;
whose graceful, modest, high-bred air they declared
to be irresistible, and her acting everything that
could be desired—adding that she was as
virtuous as she was beautiful, and that the boldest
libertines respected her immaculate purity. Deeply
agitated by a secret presentiment, I hastened back
to Paris, and went to the theatre that very night.
There I saw you, my darling, and though it would seem
to be impossible for even a father’s eye to
recognise, in the beautiful young woman of twenty,
the babe that he had kissed in its cradle, and had
never beheld since, still I knew you instantly—the
very moment you came in sight—and I perceived,
with a heart swelling with happiness and thankfulness,
that you were all that I could wish. Moreover,
I recognised the face of an old actor, who had been