Bohun looked at me.  “I say, Durward, come on, it’s only a step.  We must get to the Astoria.”

But the picture of the Astoria did not stir me.  I should have seen Nina and Vera waiting there, and that should have at once determined me.  So it would have been had I been myself.  This other man was there....  Nina and Vera meant nothing to him at all.  But I could not explain that to Bohun.  “I can’t go...”  I saw Bohun’s eyes—­I was dreadfully ashamed.  “You go on...”  I muttered.  I wanted to tell him that I did not think that I could endure to feel again that awful expansion of my back and the turning my feet into toads.

“Of course I can’t leave you,” he said.

And suddenly I sprang back into my own clothes again.  I flung the charlatan out and he flumped off into air.

“Come on,” I said, and I ran.  No bullets whizzed past us.  I was ashamed of running, and we walked quite quietly over the rest of the open space.

“Funny thing,” I said, “I was damned frightened for a moment.”

“It’s the silence and the houses,” said Bohun.

Strangely enough I remember nothing between that moment and our arrival at the Astoria.  We must have skirted the Canal, keeping in the shadow of the wall, then crossed the Saint Isaac’s Square.  The next thing I can recall is our standing, rather breathless, in the hall of the Astoria, and the first persons I saw there were Vera and Nina, together at the bottom of the staircase, saying nothing, waiting.

In front of them was a motley crowd of Russian officers all talking and gesticulating together.  I came nearer to Vera and at once I said to myself, “Lawrence is here somewhere.”  She was standing, her head up, watching the doors, her eyes glowed with anticipation, her lips were a little parted.  She never moved at all, but was so vital that the rest of the people seemed dolls beside her.  As we came towards them Nina turned round and spoke to some one, and I saw that it was Semyonov who stood at the bottom of the staircase, his thick legs apart, stroking his beard with his hand.

We came forward and Nina began at once—­

“Durdles—­tell us!  What’s happened?”

“I don’t know,” I answered.  The lights after the dark and the snow bewildered me, and the noise and excitement of the Russian officers were deafening.

Nina went on, her face lit.  “Can’t you tell us anything?  We haven’t heard a word.  We came just in an ordinary way about four o’clock.  There wasn’t a sound, and then, just as we were sitting down to tea, they all came bursting in, saying that all the officers were being murdered, and that Protopopoff was killed, and that—­”

“That’s true anyway,” said a young Russian officer, turning round to us excitedly.  “I had it from a friend of mine who was passing just as they stuck him in the stomach.  He saw it all; they dragged him out of his house and stuck him in the stomach—­”