strength of the whirl of the planet through space.
Deeper into the shadow we plunged with every echoing
tread of the hoofs. The lair of some mysterious
presence was about us,—unshaped, unrealized,
as in some place of antique awe before the time of
temples or of gods. It seemed a corporal thing.
If I stretched out my hand I should touch it like
the ground. It came out from all the black rifts,
it rolled from the moonlit distinct heights, it filled
the chill air,—it was an envelopment—it
would be an engulfment—horse and man we
were sinking in it. Then it was—most
in all my days—that I felt dense mystery
overwhelming me. “O infinite earth,”
I thought, “our unknowing mother, our unknowing
grave!”—“What is it?”
he said, feeling my wrist straighten where it lay
on his shoulder, and the tremor and the hand seeking
him. Was it a premonition? “Nothing,”
I answered, and did not tell him; but he began to
cheer me with lighter talk, and win me back to the
levels of life, and under his sensitive and loving
ways, the excitement of the ride died out, and an
hour later, after midnight, we drove into the silent
town. We put the ponies up, praising them with
hand and voice; and then he took both my hands in his
and said, “The truest thing you ever said was
what you wrote me, ‘We live each others’
lives.’” That was his thanks.
O brave and tender heart, now long lapped under the
green fold of that far prairie in his niche of earth!
How often I see him as in our first days,—the
boy of seventeen summers, lying on his elbows over
his Thackeray, reading by the pictures, and laughing
to himself hour after hour; and many a prairie adventure,
many happy days and fortunate moments come back, with
the strength and bloom of youth, as I recall the manly
figure, the sensitive and eager face, and all his resolute
ways. Who of us knows what he is to another?
He could not know how much his life entered into mine,
and still enters. But he is dead; and I have set
down these weak and stammering words of the life we
began together, not for the strong and sure, but for
those who, though true hearts, find it hard to lay
hold of truth, and doubt themselves, in the hope that
some younger comrade of life, though unknown, may
make them of avail and find in them the dark leading
of a hand.