one thing with another, and he discovers the incompleteness
of single elements of ardour in the whole of life,
and also the defects of wisdom, art, and action in
those books and men that had won his full confidence
and what he called perfect allegiance, there comes
often a moment of pause, as if this growth had in
it some thing irrational and derogatory. The thinkers
whose words of light and leading were the precious
truth itself, the poets he idolized, the elders he
trusted, fall away, and others stand in their places,
who better appeal to his older mind, his finer impulses,
his sounder judgment; and what true validity can these
last have in the end? After a decade he can almost
see his youth as something dead, his early manhood
as something that will die. The poet, especially,
who gives expression to himself, and puts his life
at its period into a book, feels, as each work drops
from his hand, that it is a portion of a self that
is dead, though it was life in the making; and so with
the embodiments of life in action, the man looks back
on past greatness, past romance; for all life, working
itself out—desire into achievement—dies
to the man. Vital life lies always before.
It is a strange thought that only by the death of
what we now are, can we enter into our own hopes and
victories; that it is by the slaying of the self which
now is that the higher self takes life; that it is
through such self-destruction that we live. The
intermediate state seems a waste, and the knowledge
that it is intermediate seems to impair its value;
but this is the way ordained by which we must live,
and such is life’s magic that in each stage,
from childhood to age, it is lived with trustfulness
in itself. It is needful only, however much we
outlive, to live more and better, and through all
to remain true to the high causes, the faithful loves,
the sacred impulses, that have given our imperfect
life of the past whatever of nobility it may have;
so shall death forever open into life. But,”
I ended, lifting my moist eyes toward the sweep of
the dark slopes, “the wind blows, and leaves
the mystic to inquire whence and whither, the wild
shrub blossoms and only the poet is troubled to excuse
its beauty, and happy is he who can live without too
much thought of life.”
The sheen of the river had died out, and the creek
was only a common stream lit with the high moon, and
bordered far off to the west with the low indistinguishable
country. We drove in silence down the valley along
that shelf of road under the land. The broken
bluffs on the left rose into immense slopes of rolling
prairie, and magnified by the night atmosphere into
majesty, heavy with deep darkness in their folds, stood
massive and vast in the dusk moonlight, like a sea.
Then fell on me and grew with strange insistence the
sense of this everlasting mounded power of the earth,
like the rise and subsidence of ocean in an element
of slower and more awful might. The solid waste
began to loom and lift, almost with the blind internal