if so, he was generally despatched on a brief holiday,
with an injunction to do no work at all; and I am sure
that the prospect of even temporary banishment was
the strongest of all motives for the suppression of
strife. I remember spring mornings, when the
birds began to sing in the shrubberies, and the beds
were full of rising flower-blades, when one’s
whole mind and heart used to expand in an ecstasy
of hope and delight; I remember long rambles or bicycle
rides far into the quiet pastoral country, in the
summer heat, alone or with a single companion, when
life seemed almost too delicious to continue; then
there would be the return, and a plunge into the bathing-pool,
and another quiet hour or two at the work in hand,
and the delight of feeling that one was gaining skill
and ease of expression; or again there would be the
quick tramp in winter along muddy roads, with the
ragged clouds hurrying across the sky, with the prospect
ahead of a fire-lit evening of study and talk; and
best of all a walk and a conversation with Father Payne
himself, when all that he said seemed to interpret
life afresh and to put it in a new and exciting aspect.
I never met anyone with such a power of linking the
loose ends of life together, and of giving one so
joyful a sense of connection and continuance.
How it was done I cannot guess; but whereas other minds
could cast light upon problems, Father Payne somehow
made light shine through them, and gave them a soft
translucence. But while he managed to give one
a great love of life itself, it never rested there;
he made me feel engaged in some sort of eternal business,
and though he used no conventional expressions, I
had in his presence a sense of vast horizons and shining
tracks passing into an infinite distance full of glory
and sweetness, and of death itself as a mystery of
surprise and wonder. He taught me to look for
beauty and harmony, not to waste time in mean controversy
or in futile regret, but to be always moving forwards,
and welcoming every sign of confidence and goodwill.
He had a way, too, of making one realise the dignity
and necessity of work, without cherishing any self-absorbed
illusions about its impressiveness or its importance.
His creed was the recognition of all beauty and vividness
as an unquestionable sign of the presence of God,
the Power that made for order and health and strength
and peace; and the deep necessity of growing to understand
one another with unsuspicious trustfulness and sympathy—the
Fatherhood of God, and the Brotherhood of Man, these
were the doctrines by which he lived.
It used to be an extraordinary pleasure to me to accompany him about the village; he knew every one, and could talk with a simple directness and a quiet humour that was inimitable. I never saw so naturally pastoral a man. He carried good-temper about with him, and yet he could rebuke with a sharpness which surprised me, if there was need. He was curiously tolerant, I used to think, of sensual sins, but in the presence