“I cannot tell what I feel, Mistress.”  And Janet covered her mouth to smother her laughter; first of all because she felt seasick, and secondly the child’s words stirred in her no such youthful enthusiasm.  She was not yet rejuvenated.

“And with all this glory of nature filling me I can less understand Sister Phelia’s words at parting.  Her eyes seemed to burn to my very soul as she said:  ’Dost not feel as thou art leaving these sacred walls that thou art passing from a retreat where the Blessed Virgin ever guides thee?’ ’I have felt her presence ever, said I.  ’But ’tis better to renounce the world and have strength to live in seclusion,’ she answered.  I made bold and replied that I thought it required much greater strength to go on the battlefield of the world and be good than live within the impenetrable walls of a cloister where bin cannot come.  ’But, child, thou wilt see beautiful things made by the hand of man that will fill thy heart leaving not room for the Divine Presence.’  ‘Nay,’ said I, ’I shall see God’s work in every beauteous thing and I shall trust Him for the gift of penetration to see through filthy rags and distorted body the beauty of the soul.’  ’Twas her wish that I should write her once a year of my spiritual condition and to think of her as being happy in her isolation.  And with this strange light about us, the farewell recurs to me and I wonder that human beings could shut themselves from so beauteous a thing as Nature in their fear of contamination by sin!”

“My Lambkin, ‘they talk strongest who never felt temptation;’ thou art going into a world thou hast not seen, much less, felt its power.  Sister Phelia is right.  We acknowledge the Divine Presence is everywhere; she intimated thou wert leaving a place where sin was not, to go where it abounded.  There is one place, however, we may always be sure of finding the divine atom whether we be in seclusion or abroad; ’tis in our own heart and called before the ages, ‘Holy Ghost.’  Many of us fail to recognize it; others cry ‘insolvency’; but the better part draw on it with confidence.  It honours our call and gives us on demand, conscience, with which we can withstand all sin if we so desire.”

The second day upon the water Janet fell a victim to mal-de-mer, and ’twas Katherine who turned nurse; and after four or five days Janet grew better and was half ashamed, veiling her confusion with self-accusation:  “’Tis good enough for me, ’twas wrong to be eating pork, ’tis positively forbidden us.  I lay it to that!  I gave myself over to eating to make up for a fast of nine long years.  Thou hadst not a qualm because thou hast been fed on wine and porridge and beef gruel and whey.  The clearness of thy body speaks for a pure stomach.  Let the awfulness of my condition warn thee.  Thou must never grumble when I take from thee weightier food than thou hast been used to.  But, Lambkin, we have had a glorious voyage inasmuch as we have had both calm and storm; had I been privileged to do the ordering, we could not have had better weather.”